yeah, the national track and field finals
 
this is my fourth time there and everytime i go there i get into a orgasmic high(quoted from jia hui).>_<>
 
school sucked today la, haha but had comm meeting could see choir ppl for a while, which was pretty fun :D im starting to think this comm will work out :D but pretty pissed some pple are always absent for these meetings which may be small but definitely not insignificant. haiz.
la la la its a rush but i really hope it ll turn out okay :)
 
lessons was sort of like just a wind that blew past me without me actually noticing.frmph.at least chem was okay, phys prac was dreary though,urgh.
haha funny today i saw ck and shaun 2 times each and it was like alternate, as if they purposedly like that, i see ck, then i see shaun. then i see ck, then i see shaun again, but not one after another immediately of course la but haha what a weird coincidence.and shaun i did NOT tao you loh is you tao me :(
 
after that i sort of grudgingly went along wif the rest to atrium to board the bus to go to the stadium. lolx, just like last time in cedar this year they make it mandatory(using a new word i learnt in gp haw haw it means compulsory:P) for all year ones to go ( in cedar it was the entire population lolX) so like lots of pple were like super bu shuang or sth like dat hahaha.
but like last time in cedar also lolx lots of pple once they got there and gan2 ran3 the qi4 fen4 already they start cheering like theres no tomorrow (that would be me) and forget that they are too lazy/unwilling/find it a waste of time/xian/unwilling to go. :D
 
went back to cedar to help lolx the sec ones simply CNEMI lolx that means can never ever make it lolx(michelley and hui hui teach me de)lolx at least they havent reached the stage of FI, forget it yet haha. woah, it was like damn fun lah, so many j ones ex cedarians came back, even some more dated back seniors came back :) and we are SO much louder than those juniors.
frmph the feeling was darn good, cheering all dose cedar cheers wif cedarians, the strong cedar spirit and stuffs :D it was pure nostalgia
i rmbr last time in cedar can cheer at least 5 times louder than now, but come nj then no one cheer so many stone, then my voice also...
but its OKAY hahaha
i realised the prob wif nj is not that we stone and no school spirit or dun wan cheer, but rather is because we always complain that others mostly stone dont cheer and stuff, and this gives ourselves excuse to do the same. elanor actually felt ashamed when i started cheering for nj despite being like on the other side of the stadium at cedar side and only a few nj pple there
she was like please dun throw fac loh nj pple at the other side dun even cheer
i was furious
so i cheered even LOUDER
:P thats me.
after a while rain came so i went back to nj side and realised despite my belief(false) that many pple were stoning/ cheering for their sec skools instead, many njcians were actually cheering, many among those whom were my classmates, like kairu and you zhi and michy and hui hui ( they didnt even go back st nicks despite the proximity) so i felt obliged to stay.
and i did.
man, cheered like mad, then we went down to the first part near st nicks and cheered again.
went back to cedar for a while but stayed mostly and cheered for nj, my junior college :D proud.
haha but when they had c div and b div i cheered like mad for cedar, it was like
' ...and we have, in lane for, blah blah for CEDAR GIRLS SECONDA...'
'GOOOOOOOOOOOOO CEEEEEEEEEEDAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
'......'
'....'
haha my loud cheers were met by ferocious glares by the st nicks girls in front. but michy and hui hui were very sporty and frenly though :) despite being so called archenemies and rivals i never really viewed st nicks as my enemy, i just wanted cedar to do well....oh well.
cheering by yourself in the midst of a huge crowd is really not helpful.
:) but cedar just rocks. i mean the cedar spirit and stuff.
lolx when it was raining i ran out of the stadium part and went downstairs and met you zhi tiong and ah long.walked a bit then some cedar pple started cheering and every cedarian cheered along, even the ex cedarians, you could see pple wearing so many diff uniforms cheering for the same school :D and yz and the rest was so freakedout/amused/amazed at how LOUD/rowdy/powerful/noisy/spirited/united we were.:) man , we rock.
 
haha saw princess today lolx her skirt really very short and tight deserve to be scolded by baboon leong hahahah but she looks damn cute so forgive her for that haha
took one photo in which i look like shit inside it. oh well, who said im photogenic? looks arent everything...haha.
 
oh, st nicks track ios really good, but i can see cedar catching up but st nicks styll got a very big lead, more to do, juniors. and st nicks is quite loud and spirited too, haha and i like that fuss about the vitamin L, love, thingy lolx, it makes them strongly bonded together. they cheer really together and sort of in a more dignified and more girlish manner, unlike us cedarians, LOUD, slightly barbaric and definitely rowdy :p but i grew up in THAT kind of environment, i like it that way.:)
but everyone is good :)
 
cheering for other schools was fun, haha esp the boys c div and b div, hah i was btw yichao and tiong so i cheered ,'joseph, hua chong! joseph, hua chong!...' lolx. and we cheered for some others schools wif no supporters also. they always black horse, never fail to suprise me.:)
hah, there was a large contingent consisting of rv-njcians lolx and they were cheering for li4 hua4 so loudly lolx.:) alam, sida,kairu etc, haha so fun. and we like randomly cheered for guys from other jcs becos nj guys all CMI cept for zirui hu did us proud, got a silver :D go zirui!
tiong was asking me cheer for some vj guy who was his ex classmate lolx then haf way he stopped and only i continue haha and tiong said the nj year two ex josephians were so shocked i was cheering cos i didnt even knew they guy and they did. lolx. chao said sth abt his name sounding like some food. yum. what was his name again argh? lolx.
 
st nicks and tchs did well, double champs. cedar not too bad, double seconds i tink, or second and third, im not sure. vs did quite badly, not up to past years, buck up brother school :D rjc double champs also, frmph stupid bready was gloating hahaha he made the right choice la haha tchs then rj, both double champs, lolx. oh correction he got ABCDE for cts not abcdf like wat yz said. mugger hippo. lolx.
 
after the whole thing after the events finish le i went back cedar there again, cheer summore, and i saw lots of pple quite bu shuang cedar cos we are WAYYY to loud for our own good :P whatever haha oh i saw yisheng and chen rong lolx. hcjc lolx. but they were beaten flat in terms of cheering of course. :D anyway i shall cheer more often for nj, even if im the only extra/enthu one. theres gotta be someone motivating others, why not you?:D
 
rmbr the reason y i didnt run fer council was cos i didnt know a solution to curb the prob of lack of school spirit and zest in njcians. and lack of cheering of course, not enthu. well, now at least i can be enthu, im doing MY part :D
 
after that went for class dinner, walked out to this part of a sealed up orad, so cool, we climbed over the railing into the sealed up highyway and took lots of pics and there was this weird sea creature tingy on the road brown in colour with a sharp tail sticking out and michy affectionately named it bibby, lolx >_<>
 
s13 rox my world.
cedar rox my world.
choir rox my world too.
 
:D man i am feeling high.
 
did i mention that theres a econs test tmr?
i am in such the deepest shit.whatever.
 

argh, xian diao haha now ish at bytes, nowdays no time go online at home so sad :(
bah today was an unproductive day, spent mostly copying notes which i smissed during the bremen thingy...argh i want brebeck! :( booo
 
haha whatever la. oh well, xian manz, later styll got maths make up haha i cant believe i actually miss mr heng haha lolx and i tot he was sacr to our class, stan said he always suan him cos he never do hmwk, he say, copy finish not i want to erase le lolx. :D mr heng is so slack :D
 
la da dee dum.
 
shoot worried about seniors farewell, now dat tomorrow must go fer track and field finals, i ll come back on thurs all red and burnt like last year lolx. how? man, must really practice soon la, whatever loh hahaha. just washed out pics yesterday haha so funny theres a pic of jia hui holding the silly ratan umbrella thingy in shanghai tan haw haw haw i see potential, shall charge a minimal fee of five bucks per viewing haha but its definitely worth the money haha. :D
 
frmph haha today stoned/slept during lectures again for the nth time lolx. whatever la, and i mug like mad copying notes but im 100 per cent sure i am totally unsure of what i am copying and i am definitely in deep shit.whatever.
 
yay yummy had m and ms today courtesy of youzhirella haha his fren actually, so silly gave the whole big haf bag to him cos she culdnt finish it. hah, if me i sure PIG OUT and finish the WHOLE thing by myself wohz. :P haw haw. had kairus fries too :p im such the GLUTTON haha but only spent 60 cents on two hot dogs that i ated staggered :( no choice, lately so much spending but so little savings :( haiz. haha talked to hui hui and michelley and you zhi afta so long and was fun, felt just like old times, first three months, cept hippo brady and heng not arnd anymore :(
haha heng got DODO i heard and brady got ABCDF haha f being gp lolx. mad mugger hippo...
 
update more soon haha.

 

bah. break time now, cant stop my blogging urge so decided to come. frmph library is a good place lah, cept that there are ten other pple blogging / emailing along wif me and i dun really like this lack of privacy...whatever lah.

just got princess letters back :) and cks long awaited letter ( in fact its so dated back i forgot all about it loh.>_< ) sort of waiting for letter from knighty and rambutan haha but i doubt they will write. whatever loh.

slacked the whole of pe, copied some maths and stuff, just realised i didnt screw up my econs i actually got fifty sth cos mcq is worth fourty per cent god i love my mcq :D haha that means i meet the criteria for promotion without moderation-YAY

whatever. screwed up my pw though, didnt do much since i left, and that stupid feedback form thats overdue, shoot got scolded irresponsible right in the ear by lpg today cos supposed to hand up asap by frid actually but i forgot and i left the damned form at home, luckily he had extra can lend me....whatever lah :( i dont care, gonna mug like mad to make up for it loh, but you know once you ve lost a persons trust, its much harder to gain it again....bah.

feeling sort of satisfied after reading all those new large chunky blog entries and letters :) makes me feel blessed. haha choir thoday morning was fun but we didnt do much of course. hmmm styll wondering what to give for the seniors esp chung, now that im taking over his place, it will hard to fill in his HUGE shoes haha hes a great secretary.

fan still seems angry at me.whatever loh, i ve had enough of trying to please her liao, shes always so smiley in front of rui xia, then black face to me, i dont even know how i offended her... haiz.:(

haha princess so guai i must also mug but damn it lah, my subjects suck,esp the sciences and maths....hey wait! thats everything cept econs! whatever lah.
feeling a bit sad.whatever lah, family stuff always makes me sad, now that its a bit screwed up. but not dat i can do anything to make it better...just hope that things have a good turn soon.

off to copy notes.
btw, MA HONSENG! you havent lend me your econs chapt six notes yet.
haw haw

feeling xian diao. saturday mornings always make me feel lazy for some reason.taa da dee dum.
alarm rang at six, and i was so damn annoyed i switched it off and went back to sleep.luckily mom nudged me at six thirty so i could rush my way to school.
bus came so fast that i arrived way before time in school and stoned around with serene and some other people.mich and rx were nowhere to be seen.haiz.
 
you know that kind of feeling that you get when you seem like you re running late and the bus suddenly appears out of the blue and you feel like it must have been some good deed you ve done in your past life that made you so good, so lucky and you just feel damn good to be alive?
for some weird reason i didnt feel that way when i saw the bus coming.i usually do, but instead i felt a sort of dread overwhelm me...like the sort of bad feeling you get when you dropped your coin inside the drain or sth.
 
rmbr once i dropped my school badge into the elevator shaft spacing. felt damn sad after that.
 
rain always make me feel sad for some weird reason,even if im not feeling sad at all.its just the gloom and the dread and whatever, the feeling of lethargy and fatigue washing over and flooding my woozy brain. maybe i should have just stayed at home and ponned the whole prac thingy. was dreading it so much.
 
but by the time i reached there and finished the whole thing, i realised what i dreaded was not the thing itself but rather the process, cos while i was doing the prac, time seemed to fly, couldnt rmbr a thing.
listened to contemp recording for the first time, really really good, esp dayong.rich, colour, emotion,expression...
 
saturdays im always weird, like not really myself. i tink random thoughts, scattered and sparse, that bear little or no significance at all, and they make me sad.
rmbr tht when i was small, i longed for long wavy golden locks that shine like the sun.i longed to be a pretty princess staying in a huge castle which lots of toys.longed to wear lovely dresses with frills and laces and ribbons and bows.
how long has it been since then? i have not changed much, have i?
not much, except i found my place in a royal family, with a lovely pink princess, lame knight and thoughtful purple royal pet. i am smiling jester.
 
sometimes i find it hard to smile despite all the rain.
when i came back from prac, the rain stopped, as if to say, welcome home! :D and i rmbred the rain when had after contemp finals.it had such special meaning to me....
but what i didnt realise was that a bigger gloomier rain was awaiting my return....:(
 
have you ever wished to be someone else?have you ever felt helpless?have you ever felt vulnerable?have you ever felt regret?have you ever felt loneliness?have you ever felt cheated?have you ever felt sad?have you ever felt empty?have you ever felt so small?have you ever felt like crying in spite of everyone arnd u smiling?have you ever felt like your mind and your body didnt listen?have you ever felt like running away?have you ever felt like crying bu the tears refused to come?
 
whatever.i better stop.

haw haw haw yesh this stupid blogger is screwed and i cant figure out how to use this new format properly,but who the hell cares? i got OOOE for common tests,which means i am officially DEAD, luckily got a b4 for my gp, which means i am not-so-dead, but styll haf a foot in the grave.oh whatever.tee dumm dumm

oh forming a new slackers union to continue the work done by dearly beloved rambutan. shall recieved the baton from him, next official pres shall be me, anyone interested? haha all 156 pple not elligible cept michelley and stanley cos we all screwed up our cts!!! ^5 YEAH haha maybe we ll becom closet muggers too! but i doubt it!hawhaw shall go find out the secret to closet mugging from hs...and whos interested? sign up soon, limited spaces.... 


well, today was sucky cos there was one whole huge pile of stuff waiting to welcome me back from germany.:( bOOOO! haiz, and got make up spa prac tmr, better wake up soon, cos haf promos coming real soon and i wanna at least consider getting decent grades so i have a slight possibility of getting s papers ( which i doubt now ) :( whatever la, damn sad econs missed E by one mark, i hope they moderate, and how come my chem is like sai? haha did i mention that on the plane back when we played heirachy tai tee first round i was the SAI? lolx.:) then i slowly improved, not bad huh.play play more. hah.

lectures were a bore as usual and i didnt understand 1/2 of maths, understood most of chem cos new chapt, NONE of econs,(HS YOU BETTER HELP ME and lend me notes!!!:'( ) booo hoo. was trying to stay awake during gp, ducro kept staring at krystle, luckily, cos she was more blatantly sleeping compared to me!!! haha at least i made a concerted effort to stay awake, even though i didnt really succeed till the second period of double gp.lolx.

before that during lunch saw stupid knight and michy was like, haha how come he looks fatter, and i was like, yeah, HOW COME? and he was like, HEY, my frens say i slimmed down.lolx.vainpot!!! hahaha.knight could go home during lunch time and go mug or slack as he wished cos he ended at twelve twenty.frmph! im gonna do sth abt that stupid chem lesson thats hindering my early thursday.... hahaha.and how come shaun looks shorter? lolx,:)

saw hs in the morning at assembly, demanded letter but he said princess havent post yet, oh well.asked him for econs notes but turns out he wasnt in arnd school, sick i guess. princess says pet down wif flu and cough.:( sadddd hahaha GERM-MANY lolx.pet too weak le...but speaking of germs i also falling sick le, reverting back to my pneumonia cough liao...haha heard ling cong also falling sick, and so is michy...oh wells...and shaun tooo...whatever la, must be the impact of the trip la, bia too much, come back lax then collapse le...oh yeah shoot, lots of seniors gifts to prepare...OH NO>>>.:( brokeeeee brokeeeennnn , argh beg borrow steal also i will find a way....

played bball wif brady and the class after school today.:) missed him a lot, wonder how hes doing in rj...and hows heng .... hahaha, i realised again for the nth time that i simply cannot make it at sports...oh well, can always practice, right?:) hahaha fun, it was so nice of yichao to keep passing the ball to me so i could practice shooting even though 9/10 times i sure fail, then pull down our team...:( but the apples rulehahah.what a lousy name...better than oranges anyway!!! :D yeah. oh wonder whats wrong wif fan again...didnt dare talk to her, like she in bad mood again....xian argh, like always have to guess what she thinking, and i simply cant read her mind...but shes such a loyal and faithful and caring fren, but i have the feeling she bu shuang me....oh well
 
talked to qiu han on the fone right after i came back from germany.:)
was a sort of calming effect she gives me, maybe its the reassurance in her voice and the warmth and frenship thats always there...i hope i can be like that to my other frens too...:)
haw haw, got anything to tell me? i ll keep it a secret one...:) like i always believe theres no point in asking, if u want to tell me you will say without me asking, but if u dun wan, i squeeze also cannot get it out....:) 
 
tee dum du, realised i spent a lot of money on the franchise, all the germany stuff, olli,e t shirt, cds, pics, etc i all buy...lolx, 50 euro at least lolx.:( haha but its a once in lifetime thing la...

got back yesterday, tired, and went home. never so glad to see my mom smiling at me, she was like poor thing! and tried to get the luggage from me so she could help me with it but i inisisted on lugging it myself, must learn to suffer and be independent sometimes.:) my mom rockz anyway! :D

as i unpacked i realised i didnt buy a lot of stuff at all, not as much as i tot i did.... oh well.:) hahaha

frmph had a nice long talk/arguement with my dad over our choir, he made me realise so many things, he could tell me that he expected this outcome, cos he could see we were not very well prepared from the start, and we were like last min muggers, which i totally agree. frmph, we lack the team spirit and togetherness and determination to win, to excel, we lack the will power as well. we lack the experience, i saw so many people freak out before the performance, so many people looking scared. heard cracked voices and wrong notes, and of course our stupid blaring mistake. i simply did not understand why, cos stage fright has never been a problem for me so i am unable to comprehend.my mom was like, girl arh, you ve been performing since you were p3? how can you compare to those unexperienced pple? and i was like yeah, tru tru, and my mom was like, also cos you re so daring, you character is the sort tian1 bu4 pa4 di4 bu4 pa4 that sort. hahaha.lolx, must train them more, we have so much more to do till syf 2005 and xiamen 2006. btu im not aiming for finals, im aiming for the top spot, vj, ac, hc, watchout! :D screwing up sacred was a good wakeup call for all of us,. im glad we found the determination and strength to do our group best for contemp, cos we were all so happy. we cried both tears or sorrow and regret and also tears of joy.:)

group five simply rockz my world. lionel is so nice.:) rmbr the late night talk i had wif him and hs at the hotel room stairway, complaining abt wanting to go back to bredbeck hotel, and wanting to sneak out late at night and ended up got stuck , couldnt go back in hahaha and the angry attendant! lolx. ling cong is someone i have misunderstood for so long,last time cannot stand him cos find him totally inconsiderate, blasting away at high notes covering up anyone within near vincinity of him.bleahhh hahaha im glad i know him better, cos hes a great guy, rmrb his seriousness and lameness and act co0l lolx, how he intently and patiently adjusted his cam to shoot the flowers and candle at the restaurant, how he so nicely offered to help joan lug her luggage arnd while i offered to carry his cam bag :D generosity is one big circle.:) and he is simply so nice and humourous! haha. i ve seen another side of ash that i have never seen before, as a person, a real individual, as a friend, a girl, who wants to be cared for , loved, and i feel myself loving her so naturally that it even shocks myself :) joan is so cute, haha and blur also lah, :) poor girl sprained her ankle, hope shes better, yeh?:) haha rmbr talking to her abt stuff on the bus while the rest shopped and hs and ash and ck went to look for the toilet, played snap and she was so triumphant when she got the larger pile of cards lolx.:) and we talked abt her leg and how pple helped her and stuff, and how ck was dependable, good for you ck!>_<>

i guess our group is so close cos most of us dont belong to a clique so we dont mind staying together cos we dont have cliques,:) which is why we bond so easily. rockz lah. we re always group five? ALLHERE!!! :D and also always together. thanks for letting me know these people better.

frmph in bredbeck hotel haha at forst everyone was complaining abt being in the middle of a forest and all, not having kettle and house one not having attached bathrooms, but we really loved the feeling of a second home, being so close to nature, so close to each other, the lovely shared bathrooms, the warm and cosy commonroon, lame games and instant noodle parties. thanks to sneey for rooming with me and tolerating my extremely low level of hygiene and being woken up in the middle of the night to the sound of me cooking water for the two lazy bums next door.

i have the feeling that stupid knighty took me and my kettle for granted but oh well no matter how much that pissed me off, his act pathetic look and lame jokes always managed to make me smile. stupid knight! didnt get to talk much to him in the trip cos maybe he was always wif his cliquer or on bus A, oh well. haha realised theres lots of pics of him and stanley.lolx.oooOOh theres a bnice royal family pic which i am going to update later or sth...damn nice. knighty is a fun chum, but bloody bastard. talk about having the best of both worlds.whatever, at least he helped me finish the cup noodles, haha, yeah and finally another person who agrees that xo sauce seafood cup noodles rock! hahahaha once you pop you cant stop!

and hon seng hahaha, lolx.:) silly rambutan. pissed me off when he teased me abt eugene, which i repeat for the nth time where n---> inifnity, that i dont like eugene as anything beyond a friend. made up my mind to give him cold shoulder after that but seems like 5 min later after the contemp final results were annouced we started tugging at each others sleeves and yelling and complaining and feeling upset together.lolx. hahaha was sulking cos my cd player, luggage and kettle lid failed on me. just died, like that, when i was dependent on them , esp cd player. man, how many times when i was lonely sitting by myself that the cd player was my silent companion, that when i wanted to talk cock rambutan and sher were playing cards and knight was on bus a that cd player stayed with me....:) haiz, must save up for a new one. anyway speical thanks to rambutan for being my sulk bag and trying to cheer me up as well as lending me haf of ur earfones to listen to beatles. rambutan is just so mature and understanding...haiz.felt worried after the talk with him and lionel at the stairs, seems as though hes keeping a lot to himself. hey, if you need a punch bag, can tell me yeah? you may think i dont deserve to be treated that way but im your friend, so let it out, you ll feel better...:) theres sth so sad abt him that i cant quite put my finger on...>_<>anyway did i mention why they wanted me to help boil water?cos silly royal pet brought a teeny weeny small kettle while i brought a 1.8 litre one hahaha he boil 5 times also not equal to i boil once, haha plus the fact that the kettle actually cracked! lolx.so funnny :D hahahahahaa. so had to help them boil water, and stupid knight got the nerve to complain that the water boiling hot, not warm enuf sommore...

 

la lala.feeling really pissed that all that 10 pages worth of stuff i spend 4 hours typing should be gone. whatever la. haha.didnt go school today, that responsible part of me in charge of waking up the rest of me reported sick today haw haw....oh, didnt talk much to ck on the trip but was so touched when i he pigged backed joan and helped her so much.:) really really proud of him, and that was awful nice and self sacrifing ...:) shoot!*regret*didnt get to take pic wif him...whatever la, theres always seniors farewell...:)

oh, worth mentioning, the street lamps there, creepy, theres no flashing green man, its from green, then 5 sec, then immediately red, lolx cant afford to sashay across the streets like you can in singapore.:) the food there, bagels, barguettes,bread, pastry, eh, hot dogs, sausages...xian diao lohz.>_<>

it rocks!!!! hahaha

any ice cream store off the streets of bremen sells ice cream thats way cheaper and nicer than ice cream from swensons, than haegen daz...esp that fifty cent per scoop ice cream we found in the high glass ceilinged shopping centre....the schokolade just rawkz!!!!>_<>

lala dee dum.the churches were so nice, it was so great singing in them that you really felt holy, like there was this holy light shining on you. walking around the streets was fun and really you could never feel tired, god knows why.

never regret this trip, every single bit, even screwing up sacred.

i sulked on the plane as we went back...cos i didnt want to go back, i wanted to be wif group five, to room with sneey, to stay next door to knighty and rambutan, to have instant noodle party in house one common room, to stay in bredbeck, close to nature, to forget abt my cts, to forget about spa, to forget abt lots of things that dont matter that much to me.of course i missed my classmates frens and family.but homework, results,etc....to me these dont really matter. anyway its the people at choir who keep me going,not some weird songs with weird tunes and weird interpretations that i dont understand...its these people who make me look forward to choir. i hope i am such a person for other people....:)

honsengshauncksher

i dont want to pretend im not sad, cos at the farewell so many people will be crying...and so many people will have to leave...and i have so many presents to prepare and so many hugs and goodbyes to give...i dont want to promise that i wont cry, i dont know for sure if i will,but i probably wont, i ll be crying inside, cos even though i ve known you guys for a while its seems like an eternity...

thetrip was an bittersweet experience, i ll rmbr it for life

theres enuf looking back, now to the future.

seniors farewell.:(

promos 2004.

syf 2005.

cts 2005.

a levels 2005.

xiamen olympics 2006.

HEREWECOME!!!!:D

 

 

 

 

yawnz.
yeah literally crawled outta bed this morning to go school bus stop to wait for rui xia so she can pass starch spray to me,gosh, rui xia, i owe u one! >_<

oooh this is my 100th entry.:)
manz, feeling sleepy but hyper.what to do?
so nice of mom to offer to watch my luggage and wait while i happily go meet the rest of royal family for dinner >_< i feel so bad, i owe you a big one mom!!! >_< my mom rockz lah!

whatever lah,:)
i suddenly realise with a dread that when i come back there will be a mountain of homework to welcome me back...nooooo!!!!!
>_<

flaming is bad bad bad and i feel the guilt liao.:(
whatever lah, let me sin, i sin liao must be punished...
i realised a weakness of my own that has surfaced thru this incident...i speak too boldly and brashly,without caring about the feelings of others.there,i feel it, WHAMM! in my face.
wake up girl,
>_<
haiz.

what is acceptance? if u care about a person it means understanding and willing to cover and not care abt weaknesses and faults of the person, but also helping the person right? whatam i supposed to do? what is wrong and what is righT? flaming is definitely wrong but what about keeping mum? thats not right either?
>_<

BAHHHHH.

hmmm princess say want to treat ne later?hah, wonder if she ll be successful not...:) haha come to think of it, i tink only qiu han has treated me b4...:P:D.

hs gaming again.haiz.whatever loh, i can slack around and spray the starch thingy...qiute last min but hu cares, at least i m gonna do it...bought lots of food,wont go hungry.
felt like crying when my mom said she wun mind waiting for me and looking after my luggage for 50 mins while i eat with royal family...small sacrifices mean so much to me>_< thanks mom.
and i felt i d been punched in the stomach when ck said he d pray for me cos i was sick, even after i flamed him so badly on this very blog.>_< man, why do i have a conscience?

>_<

i ll take this 100th entry to think and reflect on the actions i ve done these 7 months of year 2004 and think of how i can improve and change for the better,self refelction id very important.i said pple cant change me, but i can change myself, for the better, at least. :(

special thanks to rambutan for lending me that plug thingy or else i bring the silly kettle for nothin...:) thanks dude!

:D

off to eat and think. i eat better when i think, i think better when i eat.whatever it is, i better think ebfore i do anyting else again, in case i get into trouble.
:(


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?

:) yay no school tomorrow.bah, technically you might argue wif me dat the school compound is always there but the us students will be absent so the statement should be im not going for school tomorrow instead of what I wrote above. Whatever loh. Bah.Should nappy so that no jet lag later but I sure wun sleep one, adrenaline rush.i ll feel like dancing or singing or exercising or something. Anything but sleep anyway. >_<

Hah, getting free treat tomorrow from princess cos she being treated by someone else. Bah, what do they call it? Viscous circle, not viscous cycle. Haha Jaime said something abt being yelled at by mr whitbley cos she got the circle part wrong. Bah, lucky I dont take lit. whatever loh, it’s a lovely circle and im glad im right smack in the end. Hah.

Wonder what princess is making? She said sth abt making sth for me and knight but dunno what lehz. Hmmm we ll see tmr loh :D hah. Surprise surprise I brought a skir along, and yesh, not a school skirt, haha. Yeah I probably look like a nerd but who cares, I look like a happy nerd at least. If I cant get the looks I want, if I cant get the figure that I want, at least I can dress like I want. Lolx >_<

Hmm nothing much happened today, basically lounged around the hse like a huge couch potato cept I wasn’t on the couch watching tv but was slouching on my sis bed listening to my old cds. Man, I miss jay zhous voice. Hah, cant believe I actually forgot some of the lyrics, I had them all memorised, know by heart one >.<
Whatever loh, got lots of time to rememorize and catch up. Frmph. Misia s voice is damn powerful and lovely. Sometimes her loud and rowdy songs a bt the nuisance but in overall her in the sky album realy rocks. Haha very upbeat, makes me feel like dancing man. Haha speaking of dance, styll haven’t tot of any guys moves yet to subst the quite girly parts in the dance >_< whatever loh, I ll just leave it to the guys lah, my brain is officially pronounced dead. XP

Talked to qiu han on the phone, pure nostalgia again. Everytime I listen to her say a gentle but little blur and uncertain, ‘Hello?’ on the phone, it brings me back to sec one when I first entered cedar and she smiled at me. >_< girl argh, miss you so much, jia you k, damn those slacker grp mates of urs, dun care abt them, u go girl! >_< haiz.
Everytime talk to her she will always ask me to sing one :) she says my voice suits taos songs cos of my natural laziness in the voice. :P haw haw haw, whatever loh.
:D when can we go out girl? Want to see you? Haha. Silly girl wanted to send me off, but no need loh, its not like im leaving for like forever or sth. Makes me a little sad.

Was eliminating cds to bring to germany to listen and I realised I immediately put tao inside without a second thought :P pai she zhe >_< haha return to you afta germany lah >_< thanks zhe !:) also put in jay number two and four. Don’t really like his third album, while the first one is too scratchy >_< saddd I like niang2 zi4 :(

Hah meeting princess tmr at airport! :D royal family gathering again! Knight and royal pet and jester. Hah so nice of ck to treat princess to coffee :) wonder if he s mad at me for flaming me. Whatever lah, I never take back what I say, and I never regret what I do. Some people say its brave and bold, some people say its brainless and rash. Whatever.
Haha my sis wearing her grad gown now, trying it on. Haha she looks so smart! Haha but tell her I told u dat, or else she swell with pride or sth :P haw haw.
My mom rocks lah, helped me pack so much while I was moaning and complaining and anyhow stuffing stuff into my luggage >_< haha thanks mom.:) I realise sadly that im still quite far from achieving the sky high standards my mom set for me as a mom, hah aim not ready to be a mom yet.duh. haha, but it’s a great feeling to know you re still a kid and theres someone looking out for you :D.

Arghhh wonder hows fan? Wonder if shes well enough to go school tomorrow? Haiz, will styll like feel like trying to talk to her even of bump into wall ( say in cl ) cos shes my good fren, kinda feeling worried abt and for her. >_< fannnnn >_<
Haha yeah got over the disgusting pneumonia cough liao, now just a bit of irritationg phlegm that wont go away. Its like, ITS GOOD LOH >.< cant take it, so annoying.
Nose however, I predict, will suffer in germany, and jester will be deemed Rudolph for the nth time, where n is a number ---- infinity.:( whatever loh, anyway court jester = clown of some sort and clowns have red noses right? Why do I feel like im reassuring myself? Whatever loh. Haha

Keep saying whatever loh, influence by princess.>_< haha just like last time keep saying, its like, YOU RE GOOD LOH, cos stupid big fat red ant haha. Wonder hows chao and ant and the rest of the class.and the rest of my not so good results. :(
Whatever loh, shall not think about it liao, choir more important. And yeah okay I swear im gonna revamp the choir notice board after we come back k, haf to find time btw make ups and remedials and preparations to deco the board, but I ll do the best I can >_<

Yay! :D I wanna take lots of photos! I want to take photos with royal pet, sher, ck, knighty, princess (at the airport?), 156 people, rui xia, michelley, cross the bridge people, arghh, all the seniors, all the year ones!!!! Arghhhh haha so many pics to take.haha :D
And I want to buy lots of good prezzies back!!!! Even better if I see stuff which is potential raw materials for seniors prezzies, but I doubt I will, anyway spend so much le >_< ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I have to STOPPPPPP!!!!!! Hah, okay relac relax.
Im officially declared bankrupt, got 10 bucks in my piggy bank and I owe lots of people lots of money.:( its like, whatever loh, I will save loh, dun eat also can, I can do it oneeeee!!! Haha. Did I tell you cedars school motto is courtesy, honesty and PESEVERANCE??? Hahaaha.

Woah, wrote a lot argh.
:) well I m glad lots of people arnd me have found their faith, whether in Buddhism or Christianity or Hinduism or whatever, but I ve found that my faith is in people, but I care and love and really you guys make a diff to me :) which is why I get worked up over the small things you do, whether I get sad or happy. :p bleah, may not be good, because as ck says people tend to change a lot, even I change too, but I guess it’s the friendship and faith and smiles and hugs that keep the faith going strong cos god seems so far away but I guess he is there cos he sent you guys to love and care for me :) even if I cant see him, even if I don’t really believe hes there yet, there are people praying for me and looking out for me, for that, I thank whatever it is the miraculous thing that keeps me alive.:D
Woah. Long sentence.haha.:P whatever loh, my el sucks lah, but the feeling is there.
Just like jay says actually sometimes he also doesnt even know what hes singing, but its okay just as long as the feeling is there. Lolx :)

Should I drink coffee tmr not? Sweet torture. >_< to make or to break? Sometimes the difference between happiness and sorrow is just a thin blurred line
Lots of cds yay which mean lots of musik on the plane, which ROCKS!!! Hah
I will DIE without musik,I wont say choir or musik is my LIFE, but its a very important PARt of my life :) cos mostly I tink it’s the PEOPLE that keep me going on, the people make up most of MY life :) so thanks for being there people.

Hah, if you find it too soppy den good news, I stopping le, haha getting out of my reflective mood.:) yeah, flaming people is bad, I will not do it ever again.>_< even if i really feel like it, I ll just wait for the outburst to pass, you never noe what the conseguences might be.

Go bathe le.will update again tmr before I go.
This is to all those I love and care abt, esp to qiu han you girl >_< :)
:) ~wishes~,
Cos I ll be there.
:when you need a shoulder to rest on
When you need a warm hug to keep you going
I wish
I can be the one for you
Cos I ll be thre
If you need me
As you were always there for me
When I needed you too.


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?

:) today was a very happy day for me :)
Except in the morning >.< haha anyone would be angry if you falmed them on your blog rite? But ck said he wasnt, thats quite forgiving cos some stuff I wrote on impulse is really blunt and rude. Whatever lah, I say liao is spilt milk cannot take back so I shall let things be :P la la la surprised I just did dat? Knighty was darn surprised when he heard that I told ck I flamed him on my blog
Im just that kind of person
If I say sth abt you I wouldnt want to do it behind your back of sth I d do it right in your face
Which is why my human relations styll suck.
Whatever lah some people like me the way I am some hate me I so will have to make do with it I guess ck is rite im not asking him to change or anything gosh I dont even know what to do after flaming him on my blog, its just an outlet for all the held up emotions that I ve kept for so long. I dont like people asking me to change cos I wun do dat to others cos if u really care abt and love a person you wouldnt ask the person to change for you but rather accept him/her the way he/she is.
Enough about soppy stuff.

First part of my very rare happy day
Went out to meet princess :) haha she looked so cute when I was like hah might be late haha then went wisma to ship actually she shop I tag along hah im really NOT the shopping material lah haha :) but her taste is pretty good haha saw some adidas sling bag for 40 odd looked okay but I wanted a backpack :( whatever loh. Sigh.
Den went to meet royal pet who was at ps and he was like looking xian after his cl listening hahaha miss cl so much haha :)
Stupid knight was late, AS USUAL haha he looked like he was off to the beach or sth again haha and we quicked went to buy tix.
Spidey is pretty good cept I cant stand mj at all cos shes damn bimbo and chicken and useless and not even pretty for gods sake. The whole time I was moaning in agony when spidey stopped being spidey
Im a very erm what do you call it? Whatever lah I think justice shuld always prevail very judgemental person I value fairness and stuff >_< so how can spidey not help save lives when he has the ability to? GO SPIDEY YOU CAN DO IT ONEEE >_<
Stupid mj. If I was caught by the villain I d rather die to weaken him or kill him then keeping screaming to be let off, I mean how can you do dat when the lives of your other loved ones and the rest of the world is at stake? Selfish woman.
Shoot, flaring mj now. Haha enuf of mj.
Hah didn’t eat lunch but wasnt very hungry
Was popcorn so the movie was slightly better.
Stupid knighty asked for mix so ended up me and royal pet kept on digging for sweet popcorn and forced princess and knight to eat salty ones lolx.
After that went shopping upon the request of knighty and end up he realised im not a good person to shop with simply cos I DON’T SHOP FOR CLOTHES AT ALL haha.
Hs and knighty keep asking me to wear what mini skirt and what spaghetti top, which made me almost choke to death!!! Its, like, YOU GUYS ARE GOOD LOH, im always wearing a skirt, you always see me wearing a skirt, haha so whats the big deal? >_<
Miniskirts are for people with lovely long legs like fannn! Speaking of fan, wonder if she recover liao.
Haha I no longer coughing like got pneumonia liao haha better le but styll cannot anyhow eat or else sure kan it again one >_<
I guess one day I ll have to stop being a person and face up to the sad sad fact that I am a girl and girls don’t wear t shirts and berms forever. All thanks to my mom, I even gif up berms liao, my beloved berms! :( but its all for the better, like what qiu han said you cant dress in t shirt and berms when you go out with your bf or sth :( not dat I haf one, but why? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY >_< arghh. Whatever loh.

Talked a lot of crap.
Stoned a long time.
Walked around a lot.
But enjoyed myself very much :)

Den princess and royal pet had to leave for dinner at club or sth and knight seemed so uneager to go home.bah! Haha went to darells b day party.
Lolx so farr at bedok, but it was damn fun seeing darell and wei ling and eating and talking and playing and bbqing and lots of stuff.
Miss wei ling so much :( haiz, girl, when will u be free to go out? Haha will rmbr to get you choc back from germany, but first, lemme steal a bite
Hahaha :P
Darell looked so hyper. Haha
Saw zoe and cheston and hazel and reagen and a whole handful of darells other cousins.darell has n cousins where n is a number which approaches infinity.haha but they re all so cute!!! Man, I cant help it, kids are so adorable!!!! Argh!
:D and charlotte is so pretty! Omg loh, im sure she will be like the target of many guys for their gf when shes a little older, hah now only p3 a bit young, but MAN, shes damn pretty! :D how come im not pretty like her? >_< whatever loh. Hah
Haha cheston is damn cute! Can tell he will become those sort of guy that girls drool at in the future haha but will be the bad boy type.hahahah so cute! I hugged this kid and picked her up to carry , forgot her name, and when I was abt to leave she tugged my sweater and wanted me to hug and carry her >_< manz so sweet and so nice to hugggg >_< argh!!!
Cannot take it liao, I want a kid toooo hahahaha.
Okay, insane , you must be thinking, but im pretty serious. Manz, kids are the reason adults go on living. Thats what I think anyway, if I were a mother.
Qiu han wei ling darell and ck all accurately predicted that I might become those sort of house wife when I grow up, motherly and all. Sounds quite creepy and disgusting but actually the prospect of having kids is really great :D
Im too young for that of course, haven’t enjoyed enough of my teenage yet.:) but kids styll rock my world. Haha.
So sad when we left. Haiz, will miss them all and darell and weiling :’(

:D on the other hand, 2 days away from germany!argh! cant take the excitement! :D




i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?

sjoot just got back stupid physics paper.>_< it like, i got like erm 61/140 lah, not even a pass...watever....haha well lucky i guess i was really expecting like 30 or 20 /140 or sth, not bad i can crap...
o 7 isnt DAt bad...rite?

why do i feel like im reassuring myself?whatever lah...shoot, feeling quite shitty >_<
at least going out later to shop for stuff for the seniors lahh, sure very fun.haha yesh i wan new bag also...

haha

knighty knighty climbed over the wall
knighty knighty had a great fall
all the kings horses and all the kings men,
couldnt help knighty find his horse again

lolx :D hahaha welll whatever, the cut really looked quite horrible, was feeling quite worried, haha but of course im jester, must smileyyyy :)

haha wonder how many people found out dat i ve moved blog?
and only lately i realised some pple locked their blogs or sth...>_< orh manz...its like, WHATEVER loh...:(
auddie and knighty didnt i hope? better go check and see...>_<

la la la

i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?

Life sucks sometimes.it really does.
Lots of things simply dont go your way.
And lots of things just really cant be controlled.
Why do I feel like im reassuring myself?
Shit.
Im in deep shit.
As if bad wasnt enough, I get worse.
Forget that,im in deeper shit, lots of hmwk left undone.im screwing up my own life.
I like to do things to torture myself sometimes, yeah? Maybe cause if you re too happy it feels too surreal, too good to be true, you have to pinch yourself to tell yourself to wake up from that beautiful dream.yeah.im woken up alright.
Come back home to see myself in the deepest shit.
As if worse wasnt enough, I get worst.
Tired.its okay, doun have to talk to me to open me up or something or whatever crap,im okay, life s like shit sometimes, but shit will pass.
An interesting note, knighty realized we ll be going from SIN (Singapore) to HEL ( helsingky) for the Olympics.how ironic.very suitable though, im not a Christian, so hells the place for me. but I doubt I would really want to go heaven dat much, too much eternal happiness and bliss seems too good to be true, not the place for me.even if I did go, id constantly torture myself at regular intervals to make sure im not getting used to the happiness.
Too much of something and you take it for granted.
So I decided to be more passive, feeling tired liao.but sometimes I still think I speak too bluntly and hurt people s feelings.i am a shitty bastard.its true,I can be at times,if you know me well enough,that is.

Forgetting the shit for a while,update for today
Chem. Spa? Dun want to talk about it.shaun and ck both asked ( at different times of course) and I didnt make a response or anything.trying not to recall about it.screwed it up basically.i ll be lucky if I got 3/8 or sth. aniwaes, choir afta dat, sectionals.den eat den choir again.frmph.we do need the practice.seemed like miss lim was thrashing the sops at the beginning but starting to praise us near the end. Makes absolutely no sense to me cos I tot the standard was the same pretty much throughout. Whatever,compliments are better than scoldings anyway.felt quite irritated cos ash already nicely reminded me not to sing TA instead of DA and I kept making the mistake. whatever.
Went for dinner quite not very willingly with 156 plus ck ash sida beng hee shu xian rambutan and sher. Sort of missing princess and knighty, maybe cos I miss her hyper and his lame jokes.As if I didn’t have enough of knighty s lame jokes during choir.BLEAH>
Feeling very unjesterly. Wonder why ck and knighty cant really get along.character clash I guess. Makes no sense to me. Royal family needs a cook and attendant. whos interested?
Oh yeah we need a royal tamer for the wild rambutan. Royal pet is getting out of hand, knighty in shining armor unable to save princess from rambutan monster! Useless kinghty! Lolx

Lucky I had that silly nike shoe box that you zhi passed to me today. Haha snatched it from it, asked him to gimme two so I can keep barang barang inside. He very gentlemanly agreed and even brought two today. Sadly I wasn’t in the mood to bring home two in a HUGE plastic bag so I kupped one and asked him to bring home the other. Hahaha poor guy. :P whatever. Its great to have guys, thrash them around! Haha cos im like a guy too but since there are guys around can afford to let them be manly and gentlemanly and stuff and I can get them to do stuff haw haw last time girls school all maly stuff I do :P

I clung on to that box for dear life.
Maybe laughed too much at stupid knighty s lame jokes, maybe too many compliments from miss lim, maybe too many scoldings. I actually felt sad. For some weird and unknown reason. Felt like going home.
Nice sida forced me to go with the group maybe cos I looked sad/lonely/whatever.:) haha but still I felt so stone. Nj u? maybe. The greyness seemed to be affecting me a lot.
Or maybe it was other stuff. Whatever.
Michelley loked so pretty today with the nice earrings :) haha like to look at earrings but I will NEVER go pierce oneeee just like I like long hair on girls like mun yee and ash but I will NEVER go and keep oneeee haw haw :)
There was some sort of dare between thomas and hs or whatever, Thomas had to fake couple with Cheryl. hahaha Thomas, you lucky guy! I could see the secret happiness in his eyes as they held hands and walked into the Newton food centre. Lolx. Cheryl I dunno hahaha very entertaining.
Tee dum dum. Princess if you re reading this better stop and go mug! Received your letter liaoxx haha will reply soon ask that lousy royal pet to be post pet again :P
Jia you k :) you can do it one, jester juggle for you! :) juggle juggle
Haw haw.
Wow not bad long entry liao.and at the first page I was styll feeling like shit. Not bad, moved from shit to no shit. Whatever. Hahaha. Okay, I told you I d be fine, nothing can get me down.but please tell me if im too blunt k. haiz.dun like to hurt others but cant help myself. Sometimes I think too little and say too much.
Tee dum dum. What should I do today? What shall I do tomorrow?
:) for me to know and for you to find out,if that is of any concern to you
La da dee dum

knighty came in late cos sleeping.lolx.haha started to starve during choir, hu ask him never eat, huo gai!:P lolx but he really looked plus sounded quite sick, must get well than can save princess from rambutan monsterrr!!!!
lolx.

slack online.


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?

today woke up early to revamp blog...mmm this new temp is nice?gimme comments k,guys? :) i lyke it a lot...kinda like keanes song, everybodys changing...

everybodys changing and i dont feel the same...
i dont want to change,i dont need to.

lalala,went for mad search for new blog temps,wanted manga related ones but too lazy to find webbie to upload and support...xianz.and musik,wanted to add to blog, also lazy to go look for support...so i made do with blogskins.com..

not bad, the stuff there s pretty good, and this temp was love at first sight for me, cept the girl here has long hair...*sigh*
>_< hahaha havent eatn breakfast yet...gonna go out later,buy that green top then go cedar eat curry chicken mee collect my cert and say hi to weiling and darell...den scoot off to nj fer choir.
did i mention anything abt the spa tmr?

hahaha shiet, and yesh its shiet, not shit, i havent touched a single thing abt chem skill A spa yet...oh well.

hungry,wonder whats there to eat...


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?