:) yay no school tomorrow.bah, technically you might argue wif me dat the school compound is always there but the us students will be absent so the statement should be im not going for school tomorrow instead of what I wrote above. Whatever loh. Bah.Should nappy so that no jet lag later but I sure wun sleep one, adrenaline rush.i ll feel like dancing or singing or exercising or something. Anything but sleep anyway. >_<

Hah, getting free treat tomorrow from princess cos she being treated by someone else. Bah, what do they call it? Viscous circle, not viscous cycle. Haha Jaime said something abt being yelled at by mr whitbley cos she got the circle part wrong. Bah, lucky I dont take lit. whatever loh, it’s a lovely circle and im glad im right smack in the end. Hah.

Wonder what princess is making? She said sth abt making sth for me and knight but dunno what lehz. Hmmm we ll see tmr loh :D hah. Surprise surprise I brought a skir along, and yesh, not a school skirt, haha. Yeah I probably look like a nerd but who cares, I look like a happy nerd at least. If I cant get the looks I want, if I cant get the figure that I want, at least I can dress like I want. Lolx >_<

Hmm nothing much happened today, basically lounged around the hse like a huge couch potato cept I wasn’t on the couch watching tv but was slouching on my sis bed listening to my old cds. Man, I miss jay zhous voice. Hah, cant believe I actually forgot some of the lyrics, I had them all memorised, know by heart one >.<
Whatever loh, got lots of time to rememorize and catch up. Frmph. Misia s voice is damn powerful and lovely. Sometimes her loud and rowdy songs a bt the nuisance but in overall her in the sky album realy rocks. Haha very upbeat, makes me feel like dancing man. Haha speaking of dance, styll haven’t tot of any guys moves yet to subst the quite girly parts in the dance >_< whatever loh, I ll just leave it to the guys lah, my brain is officially pronounced dead. XP

Talked to qiu han on the phone, pure nostalgia again. Everytime I listen to her say a gentle but little blur and uncertain, ‘Hello?’ on the phone, it brings me back to sec one when I first entered cedar and she smiled at me. >_< girl argh, miss you so much, jia you k, damn those slacker grp mates of urs, dun care abt them, u go girl! >_< haiz.
Everytime talk to her she will always ask me to sing one :) she says my voice suits taos songs cos of my natural laziness in the voice. :P haw haw haw, whatever loh.
:D when can we go out girl? Want to see you? Haha. Silly girl wanted to send me off, but no need loh, its not like im leaving for like forever or sth. Makes me a little sad.

Was eliminating cds to bring to germany to listen and I realised I immediately put tao inside without a second thought :P pai she zhe >_< haha return to you afta germany lah >_< thanks zhe !:) also put in jay number two and four. Don’t really like his third album, while the first one is too scratchy >_< saddd I like niang2 zi4 :(

Hah meeting princess tmr at airport! :D royal family gathering again! Knight and royal pet and jester. Hah so nice of ck to treat princess to coffee :) wonder if he s mad at me for flaming me. Whatever lah, I never take back what I say, and I never regret what I do. Some people say its brave and bold, some people say its brainless and rash. Whatever.
Haha my sis wearing her grad gown now, trying it on. Haha she looks so smart! Haha but tell her I told u dat, or else she swell with pride or sth :P haw haw.
My mom rocks lah, helped me pack so much while I was moaning and complaining and anyhow stuffing stuff into my luggage >_< haha thanks mom.:) I realise sadly that im still quite far from achieving the sky high standards my mom set for me as a mom, hah aim not ready to be a mom yet.duh. haha, but it’s a great feeling to know you re still a kid and theres someone looking out for you :D.

Arghhh wonder hows fan? Wonder if shes well enough to go school tomorrow? Haiz, will styll like feel like trying to talk to her even of bump into wall ( say in cl ) cos shes my good fren, kinda feeling worried abt and for her. >_< fannnnn >_<
Haha yeah got over the disgusting pneumonia cough liao, now just a bit of irritationg phlegm that wont go away. Its like, ITS GOOD LOH >.< cant take it, so annoying.
Nose however, I predict, will suffer in germany, and jester will be deemed Rudolph for the nth time, where n is a number ---- infinity.:( whatever loh, anyway court jester = clown of some sort and clowns have red noses right? Why do I feel like im reassuring myself? Whatever loh. Haha

Keep saying whatever loh, influence by princess.>_< haha just like last time keep saying, its like, YOU RE GOOD LOH, cos stupid big fat red ant haha. Wonder hows chao and ant and the rest of the class.and the rest of my not so good results. :(
Whatever loh, shall not think about it liao, choir more important. And yeah okay I swear im gonna revamp the choir notice board after we come back k, haf to find time btw make ups and remedials and preparations to deco the board, but I ll do the best I can >_<

Yay! :D I wanna take lots of photos! I want to take photos with royal pet, sher, ck, knighty, princess (at the airport?), 156 people, rui xia, michelley, cross the bridge people, arghh, all the seniors, all the year ones!!!! Arghhhh haha so many pics to take.haha :D
And I want to buy lots of good prezzies back!!!! Even better if I see stuff which is potential raw materials for seniors prezzies, but I doubt I will, anyway spend so much le >_< ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I have to STOPPPPPP!!!!!! Hah, okay relac relax.
Im officially declared bankrupt, got 10 bucks in my piggy bank and I owe lots of people lots of money.:( its like, whatever loh, I will save loh, dun eat also can, I can do it oneeeee!!! Haha. Did I tell you cedars school motto is courtesy, honesty and PESEVERANCE??? Hahaaha.

Woah, wrote a lot argh.
:) well I m glad lots of people arnd me have found their faith, whether in Buddhism or Christianity or Hinduism or whatever, but I ve found that my faith is in people, but I care and love and really you guys make a diff to me :) which is why I get worked up over the small things you do, whether I get sad or happy. :p bleah, may not be good, because as ck says people tend to change a lot, even I change too, but I guess it’s the friendship and faith and smiles and hugs that keep the faith going strong cos god seems so far away but I guess he is there cos he sent you guys to love and care for me :) even if I cant see him, even if I don’t really believe hes there yet, there are people praying for me and looking out for me, for that, I thank whatever it is the miraculous thing that keeps me alive.:D
Woah. Long sentence.haha.:P whatever loh, my el sucks lah, but the feeling is there.
Just like jay says actually sometimes he also doesnt even know what hes singing, but its okay just as long as the feeling is there. Lolx :)

Should I drink coffee tmr not? Sweet torture. >_< to make or to break? Sometimes the difference between happiness and sorrow is just a thin blurred line
Lots of cds yay which mean lots of musik on the plane, which ROCKS!!! Hah
I will DIE without musik,I wont say choir or musik is my LIFE, but its a very important PARt of my life :) cos mostly I tink it’s the PEOPLE that keep me going on, the people make up most of MY life :) so thanks for being there people.

Hah, if you find it too soppy den good news, I stopping le, haha getting out of my reflective mood.:) yeah, flaming people is bad, I will not do it ever again.>_< even if i really feel like it, I ll just wait for the outburst to pass, you never noe what the conseguences might be.

Go bathe le.will update again tmr before I go.
This is to all those I love and care abt, esp to qiu han you girl >_< :)
:) ~wishes~,
Cos I ll be there.
:when you need a shoulder to rest on
When you need a warm hug to keep you going
I wish
I can be the one for you
Cos I ll be thre
If you need me
As you were always there for me
When I needed you too.


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?