Life sucks sometimes.it really does.
Lots of things simply dont go your way.
And lots of things just really cant be controlled.
Why do I feel like im reassuring myself?
Shit.
Im in deep shit.
As if bad wasnt enough, I get worse.
Forget that,im in deeper shit, lots of hmwk left undone.im screwing up my own life.
I like to do things to torture myself sometimes, yeah? Maybe cause if you re too happy it feels too surreal, too good to be true, you have to pinch yourself to tell yourself to wake up from that beautiful dream.yeah.im woken up alright.
Come back home to see myself in the deepest shit.
As if worse wasnt enough, I get worst.
Tired.its okay, doun have to talk to me to open me up or something or whatever crap,im okay, life s like shit sometimes, but shit will pass.
An interesting note, knighty realized we ll be going from SIN (Singapore) to HEL ( helsingky) for the Olympics.how ironic.very suitable though, im not a Christian, so hells the place for me. but I doubt I would really want to go heaven dat much, too much eternal happiness and bliss seems too good to be true, not the place for me.even if I did go, id constantly torture myself at regular intervals to make sure im not getting used to the happiness.
Too much of something and you take it for granted.
So I decided to be more passive, feeling tired liao.but sometimes I still think I speak too bluntly and hurt people s feelings.i am a shitty bastard.its true,I can be at times,if you know me well enough,that is.

Forgetting the shit for a while,update for today
Chem. Spa? Dun want to talk about it.shaun and ck both asked ( at different times of course) and I didnt make a response or anything.trying not to recall about it.screwed it up basically.i ll be lucky if I got 3/8 or sth. aniwaes, choir afta dat, sectionals.den eat den choir again.frmph.we do need the practice.seemed like miss lim was thrashing the sops at the beginning but starting to praise us near the end. Makes absolutely no sense to me cos I tot the standard was the same pretty much throughout. Whatever,compliments are better than scoldings anyway.felt quite irritated cos ash already nicely reminded me not to sing TA instead of DA and I kept making the mistake. whatever.
Went for dinner quite not very willingly with 156 plus ck ash sida beng hee shu xian rambutan and sher. Sort of missing princess and knighty, maybe cos I miss her hyper and his lame jokes.As if I didn’t have enough of knighty s lame jokes during choir.BLEAH>
Feeling very unjesterly. Wonder why ck and knighty cant really get along.character clash I guess. Makes no sense to me. Royal family needs a cook and attendant. whos interested?
Oh yeah we need a royal tamer for the wild rambutan. Royal pet is getting out of hand, knighty in shining armor unable to save princess from rambutan monster! Useless kinghty! Lolx

Lucky I had that silly nike shoe box that you zhi passed to me today. Haha snatched it from it, asked him to gimme two so I can keep barang barang inside. He very gentlemanly agreed and even brought two today. Sadly I wasn’t in the mood to bring home two in a HUGE plastic bag so I kupped one and asked him to bring home the other. Hahaha poor guy. :P whatever. Its great to have guys, thrash them around! Haha cos im like a guy too but since there are guys around can afford to let them be manly and gentlemanly and stuff and I can get them to do stuff haw haw last time girls school all maly stuff I do :P

I clung on to that box for dear life.
Maybe laughed too much at stupid knighty s lame jokes, maybe too many compliments from miss lim, maybe too many scoldings. I actually felt sad. For some weird and unknown reason. Felt like going home.
Nice sida forced me to go with the group maybe cos I looked sad/lonely/whatever.:) haha but still I felt so stone. Nj u? maybe. The greyness seemed to be affecting me a lot.
Or maybe it was other stuff. Whatever.
Michelley loked so pretty today with the nice earrings :) haha like to look at earrings but I will NEVER go pierce oneeee just like I like long hair on girls like mun yee and ash but I will NEVER go and keep oneeee haw haw :)
There was some sort of dare between thomas and hs or whatever, Thomas had to fake couple with Cheryl. hahaha Thomas, you lucky guy! I could see the secret happiness in his eyes as they held hands and walked into the Newton food centre. Lolx. Cheryl I dunno hahaha very entertaining.
Tee dum dum. Princess if you re reading this better stop and go mug! Received your letter liaoxx haha will reply soon ask that lousy royal pet to be post pet again :P
Jia you k :) you can do it one, jester juggle for you! :) juggle juggle
Haw haw.
Wow not bad long entry liao.and at the first page I was styll feeling like shit. Not bad, moved from shit to no shit. Whatever. Hahaha. Okay, I told you I d be fine, nothing can get me down.but please tell me if im too blunt k. haiz.dun like to hurt others but cant help myself. Sometimes I think too little and say too much.
Tee dum dum. What should I do today? What shall I do tomorrow?
:) for me to know and for you to find out,if that is of any concern to you
La da dee dum

knighty came in late cos sleeping.lolx.haha started to starve during choir, hu ask him never eat, huo gai!:P lolx but he really looked plus sounded quite sick, must get well than can save princess from rambutan monsterrr!!!!
lolx.

slack online.


i am what i am i do as i like...do you understand?