latest damage to my bank account.

i tell myself it's ok, because it's not like those standard materialistic girly things like shoes, or bags, or clothes, or makeup products (seldom actually), nor is it like insanely expensive ostentatious goods like branded bags, luxury goods, blah blah.

still within budget.

and on sale on UO!

was supposed to give my holga 120s away but a turn of events and now it is still on my makeshift desk (makeshift because my mother threw my old desk away while i was gone :( ). i got the diana nightcap on sale on UO as well, and also the instant back, but now i am seriously contemplating just going with the Holga system and selling the diana. had 1-2 rolls on it and most of it turned out like shit (okay maybe not so bad but that's me being harsh), but i never had any problems with the vintage holga.(ma love)

or i could be greedy and keep both, then i could like lend them to friends to fiddle around with and stuff. I always feel inextricably happy when i am able to lend friends things. I'm not a stickler for my stuff being in perfect condition so i am perfectly happy if they come back in one piece (and are in working condition)

there are many pro photographers in our midst and loads win competitions (they are called rumbles on lomography.com apparently) and gain points called 'piggies' which can be redeemed for accessories or cameras but to put things plainly i have been as active on my lomohome (there's my feeble attempt at shamelessly advertising my plain boring site) as J has been active in hall. One word sums it up basically-

phantom.

but to be fair i am really quite annoyed with how user-unfriendly the lomohomes are- the photolab, mainly, and how long it takes for me to upload a couple of photos. Couldn't everything be as simple and as cool as flickr?

well, i dunno, i guess i just don't see the need to resort to extreme measures to advertise my new photos/albums, or to join competitions, blah blah. I am too lazy for this. On the flip side i am not criticizing anyone for joining rumbles or publishing their new albums- in fact actually it makes me extremely excited to see new stuff (because as always that means there is a highlight in my more-often-than-not-mundane-and-boring life), and also competitions are a fantastic way to hone your skills, gain recognition, and spurr you on to improve, etc.

And more often than not, most of these people i know who are always publishing new albums, photos etc, are like, seriously good at it. Good to the point of being extremely technical, knowing their stuff, being precise.

it's just, i don't really have that drive-

my approach is pretty laid back, with things.

most things in life, anyway, as with lomo.

i guess i am happy snapping a few photos when i feel like it,

and browsing through fantastic photos of people's lives and adventures.

(okay maybe i would write articles with photo posts. that notion is kind of attractive to me. )

but anyway going back to the topic, i am quite excited about the sprocket.

A says the most awesome thing about it is that you're able to go back to whichever exact frame you want, but actually, i don't think i'd remember? what's on the 5th frame when i'm already at the 24th. or something. probably some random photo of my disgruntled-looking sister?

(call that the goldenhalf mindset- the 72-shots-just-shoot-ah-doesn't-matter-anyhow-whack mentality that i brought over from owning and using the camera for years. And also the advice that eusoffworks seniors gave us during our virgin DSLR training session: be trigger happy, just shoot, the more shots you take, the more to choose from, confirm will have a few good ones. Digital it's all free anyway.)

i already told A he should bring it with him to the US of A.

excited! i hope it'd come in time for me to bring it to Joga.

so i can erm, take pictures of the volcanic dust.

or something.

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sometimes it's as if i feel that nothing/no one can satisfy me-

it's because i'm so difficult, i'm so moody, i'm so random-

it's because, fundamentally,

i'm insatiable.

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猫みたい-

变幻莫测-

撒娇，

慵懒，

任性，

好玩，

骄傲，

无情，

冷漠，

孤独。

就像猫一样。

“こんなの「私」、あなた、解る？”

とこ時、僕はそう思う。

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又要出国了!

今年终于可以如我父亲所愿，可以‘避年’。

我想他偷偷想着这个念头，也有好几年了吧。

2010 让人有点不知所措的感觉。可能因为时间过得太快了，感觉上它像伦敦的风一样，又猛又迅， 你没穿厚一点的风衣的话，肯定就给你冻个措手不及。

一年也就这样过了，新年也要来了，也没什么很光荣，可以让自己觉得很骄傲的成就。

可是就也这样，像个平凡的小市民，踏踏实实，顺顺利利的熬过了。

新年总是让我觉得有些麻烦-

要大扫除，要整理东西，要买新衣；

这些都是让人很懊恼的事。

红包，肉干，点心，火锅；

这些东西，已经不会让我振奋。

毕竟已经不是小孩子了，不会在除夕晚上兴奋得睡不着觉，

也不会在大年初一特地早起，想着要对长辈说的祝词，

满心期待着拿红包- 今年会不会比较多？

秋含说今年是我们的本命年，所以犯太岁，不是很吉利，

可是我就是管他屁，反正我从来也不相信这些所谓吉利不吉利的事。

我寄了一张很传统的贺年卡给住在曼彻斯特的朋友-

我想，在洋人的地方住久了，应该是久违了吧，鲜红色的贺年卡！

让我开心的是，我也收到了一张-

是小仪寄来的，真是意外的惊喜。

她整齐的字在卡中说了简单的祝贺，

看着，我真的是感到无比的感动。

今年有点懒惰，

明年就多花点心思，给所有的朋友都寄贺年卡吧！

虽然有点老套，哈哈。

新的一年，

就祝大家事业顺利，学业进步，爱情美满，身体健康，平平安安吧！

恭喜发财这种无聊的话就省了；

当然还有最重要的，

希望大家幸福快乐。

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