reading 'life of pi' now.

it's less than a chapter but i find myself drawn in and entirely captivated already. I suppose my sister and i have polar tastes when it comes to all things then, not just music; she gave a rather bland review of the book, brushing it off and simplifying the storyline into a boring 1-liner.

I suppose it's because it writes about religion, and also other spiritual things like finding oneself, amidst the sarcasm of the protagonist and his very interesting and exciting life, which are all things that i find endlessly appealing - religion, spiritual things, the concept of finding oneself, sacarsm/realism/dry wit, exciting 'other's' lives.

couldn't bring myself to read something that's just outright funny.

strange but unless i am in a good mood, i wouldn't want to read something funny. Perhaps i would want to watch brainless sitcoms (cue 'how i met your mother' theme song) to laugh and get over it but reading something that is funny just doesn't elicit the same effect.

it takes more effort, more focus, more... calories. Reading is just so much more demanding.

Like a person.

Like getting to know a person.

of course first unless you want to get to know the person,

you wouldn't bother-

but once you get interested,

that's it, you get hooked, plunge head in and there's no turning back

(well, not unless there's some lousy overused plot twist that totally turns you off in the middle of the storyline)

i suppose i could finish it in a day if i wanted?

maybe today-

right after work, on the tube or something.

but there are other more important things on my mind such as that i have been tasked with organizing my line manager's farewell party.

why?

in junior college, in kendo, in hall, in choir,

maybe they might have had different names, different positions

but why,

why am i always tasked to do things like these?

do i have a welfare/kind face?

do i look like i (can) genuinely care for other people?

(okay so maybe i do/can genuinely care for people.)

do i look like i am capable of doing frisky things like buying farewell cards, secretly hustling everyone to sign them, buying a cake, organizing a farewell party?

god, what do they even do at farewell parties (i've never really been to or organized one, i think, only the welcome ones)

but what comprises a 'farewell party'?

good grief,

where do i start?

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秋含曾跟我这么说过-

‘当你喜欢/爱一个人的时候，他的缺点都会变成优点’

对我来说，这是不可思议的事情-

一个人的缺点怎么可能成为优点？

再怎么爱一个人，顶多就是对你而言，他的优点远远胜过他的缺点，

或是，他的缺点，对你而言，是渺小的，可以容忍的，

因为他的优点就是深深吸引住你，你没办法。

缺点终究是缺点，

怎么可能成为优点？

如果这才是所谓的‘真爱’，

那很可惜，我还没有体验过。