the disappointed face of your dance choreographers;

a little choking; a little red, with tears brimming in her eyes-

or maybe just a kind of indescribable frustration in his brows

sometimes it just breaks your heart.

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it's time to take things one step above that level-

because there is simply no time/space/void left to criticize/blame or to feel guilty about;

as much as it is infuriating/frustrating, seeing people in the wrong blocking, or doing the wrong steps/steps at the wrong timing/forgetting steps; rather than let it affect me, i really should have just kept to what i was doing and do it well and right.

maybe i've been too harsh? on other people-

i didn't want to say it when people are off their blocking, or missing steps, or following others, but sometimes the frustration of doing the correct thing alone/in a small group, is too overwhelming.

i don't want to be bossy; neither do i think i have the right to criticize/correct people. it doesn't help that aiting isn't the usually the kind of choreo who singles people out for dropping/not knowing steps; i do like that she treats us as mature adults taking responsibility for ourselves.

and objectively speaking, aiting's style of dance and teaching is really not easy to pick up, and some of her choreo we had to learn on our own from each other, even, [due to commitments like class or ihg or what nots]. and it didn't help that the song/steps had to be changed-

it's nobody's fault to blame really.

now things are at this state, at this point,

i have to take things as they are-

and try not to let the negative things eat me

just look on the bright side of things;

somehow we'll pull through together-

i know it will be the loveliest dance.