wonder of wonders,
the worst of the worst,


the outcome is as expected.

great.

i really don't know how to appraise my emotions now, along what dimensions either;
am i happy?
sad?
happy/sad/overwhelmed/full of pride/tired/irritated/annoyed

mixed feelings again.

so wayne popped the question,
why?
why why why.
because i didnt dare to, not last year, not the year before.
no one said i couldn't, i didnt qualify.
in my heart, to myself, i just didn't.

now that i know i do, it doesn't matter what the others think.
though i must admit there have been some looks of surprise.
its like people are looking at me with renewed interested, like i can almost see their thoughts runing through their minds :
'wow, i didnt know she's so zai!'
'wow, i didnt know she can D!'

yeah, well, i guess i can, it seems like.

so, now what?

the list says 'deepee' and my name is like the first on the list.
but wayne had to tell me that i got into both and they deconflicted and i have a choice.
'you want to D for chingay also? can ah. ha ha.'

thanks BRUDDER.



let's see, i have got kendo presidency on my hands, no 1. thats for sure.
kai above self, self training above everything else.
and i have choir, confirmed :)
so now,
it's either plan A, plan B or plan C.
plan A: chingay, aka rag part 2, plus dee pee.
plan B: chingay D plus deepee.
plan C: chingay D, no deepee.

and there's no deepee without chingay, because we spent bloody 3 months on the amazing float and i can't imagine not having to do anything with/about it. sit on it and wave, dance around it, throw candies off it, skate around it, roll around it, wipe my face on it, whatever!
OURS!

so i HAVE TO DO CHINGAY, by hook or by crook.
by D or by touchup.
so now, it's just which.

okay, so how now brown cow?

i know i really shouldn't be proud at all that i made it for deepee;
even wei phin got in! [no offense to him though]


on a small side note, the JCRC this year is amusing/amazing me with their incredible amount of time and commitment to things other than JCRC itself. allan alex in chingay, man yan and seng tuck in BOTH deepee and chingay.
a first for all JCRC, i must say. i dont remember vijay liew or jit having so much energy and time on their hands... all the best, i guess.
so man yan ah, so man yan.

come to think of it.
its so typically you.

the thought of shazzy being in chingay dance makes me happy for some reason ;
i'd love to imagine her being a cute pixie/elf!

but something that shazzy said make me really 100% agree:
there's this thing about eusoff hall,
everyone who's not a dancer will want to dance also,
because everyone is dancing!



hell, yeah, i can't deny,
i miss the feeling