the blue black on my forearm near my armpit doesnt really seem to be healing much. i didnt think much of it, till i received n number of shocked expressions from my fellow kendo ka upon their realisation of its existence. and i had a pretty hard time convincing kiat meng that it's the fruit of somebody from NUSKK's labour. lol. or rather, the by product of badly missed kote[s?]
dr. ho was like, wah, so much pus.

.... so maybe thats the yellow part inside it. less red and purple, more blue and yellowish now.



anyway today was a morale booster.
but the conclusion i have come to, regardless, is, still,
to train harder. n times harder [you know me, so you ll know what i mean by n]

im pretty lucky i managed to win 2 matches today but i got chromed by selina from nyp, who's in nus now, which is kind of like history repeating itself for the 3rd time. i remember getting chromed by her like two times before, but shes so good im speechless and i totally admit to my defeat. i just wish i could have done better! after listening to all the feedback from all my batchmates, the seniors, the juniors etc who painstakingly watched every single minute [well maybe not, but almost] of the matches i was in, including the prolonged ENCHO matches; there's just so much more i can improve, so many bad habits i can change/remove/eliminate/kill and so many more techniques/skills i can learn/improve on


anyway im kind of amused with the way my mom secretly smirked when i told her i won 2 matches and lost in the 3rd one. my sis, on the other hand, was pretty encouraging, surprisingly. little devil. never know when she suddenly will be nasty! but i cant imagine my weekends without her; its such a comfort to have her there :)

now i just feel like calling wife and telling her everything! about kendo, and hall, and schoolwork and about the changes in my life and asking her how she is and everything but i shouldnt since shes probably busy studying [or maybe NOT! watching hongkong dramas more likely haha]

疲れたが、難しいが、剣道ができます。
剣道は僕の人生、僕のすべて、
正しいの剣道、今まで探す。

それは、

剣道プライドです。

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on the other hand, i realise i keep thinking about grading but not exams! やばい！きゃ！これはだめです！*shakes head* okay, kendo is important, but IM STILL A STUDENT, AND GRADES IS STILL IMPORTANT. DAMN.

だから、いまだけ、勉強します。