ok, i know its not right to think of eating a nice gravy-dipped half-raw beef steak in the middle of the night [technically that statement is flawed; its now 2 am goro...so its early morning.]

feeling lethargic lately. but kind of happy also. contented that my mearge circle of social relationships seems to be widening at an increasing rate [maybe it might increase exponentially! and at this exact moment, i shock myself by actually being able to remember how to draw the exponential curve! woohoo. ]

suddenly i feel like eating katsu don... actually to be frank, the only don i ever really want to eat is una don [short for unagi? i wonder if there are this kind of abbreviations...] but because i know its going to be exceedingly extravagant, i cheat myself secretly and slyly by trying to convince my true inner self to switch sides to the more economical, more value-for-money, more filling, more reasonable katsu don. i mean, just look at that line of adjectives! isnt the mere sight of it enough to convince you that katsu don should be THE ONE?

not really.


ok, its normal if you think im weird because for me this is absolutely normal. these internal struggles and invisble arguments go on mentally everyday without fail. my life is basically a kind of dynamic equilibrium [net force or movement in each direction = 0, note, different from static equilibrium] consisting of pulls and pushes in all kinds of directions applied by agents of desire and obligation...

OKAY OKAY
what i really really want is a HUGE unagi don with a HUGE, gravy-laden piece of unagi lying right SMACK!!!! in the middle of the rice. nice, fragant japanese rice[oh-who-gives-a-damn-when-theres-an-obnoxiously-huge-piece-of-unagi-on-top-of-it-everything-else-pales-in-comparison]


i need rest. the processes are going haywire.
next time you see me, i ll start asking questions then answering them myself

brilliant, really.