its always that feeling of regret.

im always looking behind my shoulder, admiring what i dont have.
its like when you decide to order something, and after you placed your order, you see someone else's order arriving and then you regret not having ordered something else instead.

what i really wanted was green tea icecream with red bean.
so why, why did i order soba?


the whole time, the whole thing, whole issue about societal norms... conformity...
sigh. whatever the case....