since im feeling rather introspective and actually rather profound and wise today, and considering the fact that my mind was a blank when the interviewer asked me what i do intellectually, i shall think and write about some things bothering me lately.

ok, so my current situation. im good, i think, physically, mentally, spiritually, figuratively, literally, whatever. ok is and apt word because its the kind of word singaporeans use when they feel obliged to give an answer but dont know how else to describe the situation./ along with the likes of 'not bad' and 'nice'.

i forget. its usually, 'er, nice' or 'urm, quite nice lah'.
along those lines.

im reaching a bottleneck both at the hospital and at dragon city. i guess all the best stuff i can squeeze from the marrow there has been squeezed. and whatever benefits i can potentially reap and whatever things i can learnt have been reaped and learnt, respectively. so i feel like moving on.

sometimes it feels like im a modern normad. i dont like to stay stagnant in one place, i like to move around and progress.

im starting to wonder if psychology is really for me. but whatever the case, i ll study that and become an art therapist and earn some money first. then if im really not cut out for helping mental patients, i can always switch careers and become a graphic designer or fashion artist or whatever./ get married, have children. doesnt matter.

one step at a time.

back to now.
just came back from a run. ran to qiu hans house to have a talk with her at the senior citizens corner near her house. shes this neat freak with a clean fetish. considering the fact that i gave her no prior notice and only informed her when i reached her house, downstairs, i decided i better not trouble her and just talk downstairs where it was more convenient.
ps. her mom is the ultimate. shes the type who has to clean the house n times or more if there are visitors coming. you know what n means. *smirk*

sometimes i feel like a guy. really. honestly i can hear the shock in their voices even if its subtle and well concealed when i tell people what i do for qiu han. i guess it was my past life. maybe i was her husband and owed her something. but i must admit im bad tempered and take her for granted sometimes. but she has told me the things i do for her makes her wonder if her future husband will be able to compare to me.

haha. ok, not just to talk, i ran for the sake of it. pure adrenaline. fun, joy and laughter. for that throbbing feeling and the feel good rush of blood and hormones in your body. cant help it, im an authentic adrenaline junkie./

i always think, why cant i be a guy. then i d go after her, and things would be much simpler.
however, to my chagrin, [yes its becoming my favourite word] i am horribly and irrevocably straight.
you know what i mean. come on. haha. ok, maybe im a bi, but guys are rather attractive.

i must admit, like a regular girl, i get those pangs of lonelines in the middle of some really odd time and just want to get attached to someone very badly, doesnt matter who, as long as the person is super nice to me.
but theres not much a point in getting attached for the sake of it. its the person that matters.

though there MAY come a time i get married so i can have children. i like kids too much. heh/




as usual i have digressed. but thats wenlin, in a nutshell.
ps my sister says her annoying science teacher loves to use 'in a nutshell' .
extensively. excessively.
in a plethora. overabundance.
you know n where n nearing infinity. thats damn funny cos almost every other sentence she says has that phrase in it. hahaha. hilarious.

ok. your regular dose of wenlin, done
till next time, for more flim flam, which means nonsense.
wenlin, signing off.