[Self.]
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Regretted a few times, buried and hid the devilish demon
But it feels more like im destroying myself.
A few times fragile, only to conceal my refusal to be weak
This is me.

Then again, its not as if I desire eternity
Actually, i am, unable to stay loyal to one feeling.

Silence settles
sinks in;
Soundless destruction.

Its me who rejected your awaken eyes
Its me who beckoned the delusion beneath your eyes
Just let me forcefully smash the gently whispered promises
Embrace this instant

Its me who weaved the truth using fabricated lies
And its me who used the shattered to guess this world
Just let me respond to your unrestrained fervour
A spurious moment
Its me

Regretted a few times, buried and hid the devilish demon
But it feels more like im destroying my inner self
Silence settles, sinks in; soundless destruction.
Escape.

Its me who rejected your awaken eyes
Its me who beckoned the delusion beneath your eyes
Just let me forcefully smash the gently whispered promises
Embrace this instant

Its me who weaved the truth using fabricated lies
And its me who used the shattered to guess this world
Just let me respond to your unrestrained fervour once again
Our performance

Its me who weaved the truth using fabricated lies
Even if I use the shattered to attest this world
Once more; let me savour the pleasure of making a mistake
Sweet instant
Its you who brought me through this pure moment
There are no regrets.
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who says you know me?
how can you say you know me?

what do you think... how can you...how could you?!
afterall, its just for show. how many of you know what goes on behind that door? how many of you have seen tears in my eyes before? How many of you have had me crying, pleading you for help?
if i smile, its only because i know if i dont, i might start crying.
dont say you know me, and dont think i live the life of a flower in the greenhouse.
its not as if i would bother to tell you. its not as if you would really understand. not as if you would comprehend, not as if you would empathize.

its not as if i trust you anyway.

if reading this post made you worried, dont be. you re probably not the person im directing this at anyway. you wouldnt read this, would you?
the way to untie a knot is first to verbalise the problem. step one, check.
what next?

a really odd translation done by yours truly on the spur of the moment. the lyrics are really beautiful and apt, i figure. at least for me, at this moment in time. its almost exactly how i feel.its her voice that moves me.


you know what, yeah, i wish too, that i can be what i seem. happy and smiling all the time.