im supposed to be studying since i did so badly for CT2 but who cares i dont feel like anyway. frmph. its raining and i feel kind of sad. looking at old pictures, reading blogs of people whom i were once close to but have now drifted further and further apart... its almost as if the wenlin inside the pictures were someone else and i dont know her at all.. or those people standing next to her... sigh


its a kind of weird feeling. like you never realise it but the realisation suddenly dawns upon you on fine day when you re bored at home and surfing the next that you regret not doing so many things because you lost so much just because of so little... but things cant go back already...


at least some part of memories stay... :) im not going to rant about how good and how nice some people are to me.. blah blah. haha you know who i will mention :) but its a nice feeling to know shes always there


feel like digging up a whole and just hiding in it then covering up myself with soil sometimes in class... its a rather sad feeling and sometimes i feel a dread going to school, which is, rather sad actually... the nature of the whole thing. lessons are fine, but i think im getting tired of interacting with people, especially if you re not particularly close to anyone and you have to keep thinking of things to say so you wont feel weird or out of place. its not about fitting in, its about surviving. not like being alone is bad. but company is good


if i were left alone on an island i think i would die


if i were left alone on an island with a guy i really disliked i would probably fall in love with him


this whole island hypothesis... bah. i ll never know till it really happens. but thats what im guessing anyway. friends are the best things in life, after family. yep. but not much point if you dont have many close friends anyway.. sigh i kind of miss qiu han, and huichiang, and qiu ping, and weiling, and darell... its tiring. jc life is bitter. really bitter... not even bittersweet... and im feeling worn-out already


how long can i put on a smile and try? its tiring... i think i ll be my antisocial self again...
she loved me for the way i was, my antisocial self. so if you re my friend, you should too. right? but i guess you re not.