i seriously think im going mad.

for the whole of the afternoon today i was restless, senseless and irritable. and it wasnt even because someone annoyed me. god knows why. i felt like sh*t. just feel sick and tired of studying, of being a good student, an obedient daughter, reliable friend, whatever whatever

i am sick i am sick i feel sick i feel like shit

crap. and it doesnt help if u re restless and keep banging your head against the mattress. or the wall for that matter. crap.

i feel sick.
i swear one day when i cant take it anymore i ll just leave this crazy place
till then,
damn.