woke up this morning on time. go up grudgingly and tired to pack my bag. couldnt find my chem notes or my voice. i found some weird croak in return. i swear i can sing bass today.
so i sat and stoned on the sofa while my spirit drifted back to bed...
i was feeling so upset and so tired i went back to sleep

i know im bad.

so i slept. woke up at 9.15 feeling slightly better. ditto why nowadays i always wake up feeling hungover. =_= but i nvr touch alcohol!!! even though i think if i could afford it i would... ha ha. maybe

im feeling so bad. sigh i missed physics SPA and comm meeting today. sigh i should have gone to school. you know i felt so guilty that i wanted to go to school just for the meeting den come back to sleep the whole day? sleeping is calming. *yawn*

i used to be the model student lah, not in terms of grades but small things like coming on time, attendance, paying attention in class.
sigh, now im like coming late for school, not coming at all, or sleeping through lessons cos i stayed up the whole night [almost] doing those damn tutorials ...

im lacking the motivation to go to school, dammit. *sigh*
it does not help that it seems like i can study better at home. at home alone i can finish 3 tutorials [relatively difficult ones] at one go in like, say, 4 hrs? when i sleep thru the double lectures in school and have to go home to reread the stuff

sigh sigh. im showing signs of rebillion.if my parents knew...
they are teachers. what do you think their response would be?

i ll never be a teacher. its far too much stress on my kids, if i have any.


i should be a housewife. den after i do finish my chores i can sit around and just look at people walk by and think meaningless questions and unuseful thoughts and observe the world around me. i like doing that. ha ha wait. that was what socrates did. but he did a lot more

la la la. sohpies world, here i come. after that, *sigh* more tutorials...

sigh. i cant believe dr tan pang seh me and nvr open his clinic. so i had to go to this loh guy. =_= but he seemed nice enough ") oh well...
my voice likes to play hide and seek with me. and my range is rapidly expanding. good?

sigh