Yo
This song goes out to all of you out there
You know we ve been through a lot
And I really cherish these moments
So if I cant have you
Then I don’t want anybody
You know what I mean?
:)

Hahaha thats the starting part if Wilber pans if I cant have you
Rox! :p

Yepps woke up this morning to a phone call from my sis
Apparently shes taking shinkansen now today
So shes pretty excited

Two more days and shes gonna be backkk
So soon
But I miss her
Seeing her empty room and empty bed
It’s the thought that shes gonna be back soon that keeps me happy
Shes said she helped me get a lot at the temple in japan
It’s a good lot but she said I will have to go through bitter first so I enjoy the sweet
As usual I always get this sort of lots
Hahahaha :p happiness never comes easy I guess

Was thinking about lord of the rings
You know the sad/happy love story of arwen and Aragorn?
I was like damn sad/happy cos I like them both
Theres something so fiercely strong about their love and something so tragic
Its like theres this subtle love between the two of them
That only they can decipher

Initially I really disliked eowyn
Cause she had to play the role of the third party
But I realized not long after
That I had so much in common with her
I refuse be treated like a girl
To be taken care of and protected
She had a strong will and a determined mind
And a strong sad love for Aragorn that was unrequited
Quite sadly
She loved him
Yet he loved arwen
She still loved him so much and herself so little
She was somewhat a ghost because her love for Aragorn was never meant to be
I respect her because she took a stand for those she loved and protected her loved ones in times of trouble and doom
And despite her love being unrequited
She stood strong
And her love was pure and true
:)
She is truly a woman of honour and dignity and good character

I guess its a sort of fate that the author should put her together with faramir
Who loved her so dearly
That in due time
She would love him
As he loved her
:)

But in real life
Love isnt quite as simple
And you dont always get loved back the way you love others
And its not always a happy ending for everyone
So its okay
And its alrite
:)

Haha lolx spent like maybe 3 hours? Talking to qiu han on the phone yesterday
Its was pure NOSTALGIA
I was so overwhelmed
I like told her everything going on in choir in school in class at home
She just has the natural ability of being a bottle cap opener and I happen to be a reluctant bottle
>.< miss her sooo much so much it hurts sometimes
She was pretty sad for me more sad than I was for myself
But I guess you cant really be sad when you like a person and the person is happy right? What really matters is the person and not so much of yourself any more
:)
We were talking about vacation and she was complaining that there was no holiday mood AT ALL lolx and I was telling her about the last day of school
Almost everyone ponned gp lessons except for my class
Which was full attendance cept for guo feng who had canoris musik nite
And ducro was so pleasantly surprised that for the first time he sort of let us slack around and for half of the double period we even went to comp lab to read essays online
He was complaining abt how long he had been waiting for the school term to end
Like it was a cockroach you know the type that just NEVER SEEM TO DIE OFF no matter how many times and how hard you whack it
The school term just never seemed to die off
And the way he said it was just so hilarious we couldnt stop laughing
:D lolx
And qiu han was complaining to be abt handphone sms short forms cos she couldnt understand them and I had to decipher some for her lolx
Shes still the cute blur ger that I knew 4 years ago

You know sometimes I imagine us when we re old
And we already haf grandchildren and maybe even great grandchildren
And we are looking at each other sitting on our rocking chairs
And usually its me talking and her listening
But we d all hav lost our teeth and we re just smiling at each other cos we d be friends till the end of time


Sounds silly but true
And for me
If I am eowyn
I d like to spend the rest of my life growing white with my faramir
And we d still be handing hands when we re all wrinkly and white
Hahaha what a comic effect that has lolx

If I cant have you then I dont want nobody
If I cant have you then I don’t want no one

:D

Ahhhhh sprouting nonsense again
Been wanted to go to a place to shop for prezzies for the seniors
Or at least packaging for the seniors but just havent done it yettt
Been harping on it for ages
Will go next week I think
:)
Yeahhhh

I want something special yet ordinary elaborate yet simple
How????? Hahah >.< shucks I am such the pickiest person :p
And how to get so much moneyyyyy
Will beg borrow STEALLLLL arghhhhh
Lolx shouldn’t worry abt it too much I guess
Yepps
:p

I want to watch movieeeee but dunno what
Oh yeah qiu han said sth abt going k box
yAy~~~~ k boxxxxx roxxxx
haha haben been there for ages
but shit it ll cost a BOMB nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
>.< must really eat less spend less save moreeee to last thru the hols
>.<
I really want a HUGGGGG nowww >.< miss qiu han so muchhhhh
>.< I want HUGGGGGG
Haha being childish againnnnn :p
The things I doooo
Must find some time today to mugg a little and maybe update thissss
Hahahahahahaha I want huggggggg

Lolx the rest of this stuff is pretty much nonsense and crap so if u re a guy and not in for girl crap then you may stop reading here 

When I told qiu han what was going on she was pretty sad and disappointed for me but I was quite as sad and her
Then she was discussing what qualities her future boy friends must have
I told her I didnt want a lot but what I wanted was maybe too much to ask
Ashe said she wanted a lot
Our conversation went sth like this :

Qh : he must be taller than me
Wl : DUH!
Qh : liddat duh meh? Anyway he must not drink smoke or take drugs
Wl : DUH!
Qh: liddat alsi duh meh? Anyway he must have good character
Wl: DUHHHHHHH! Hahahaha
Qh: liddat ALSO DUH??? Hahaha anyway some girls like bad boys watt
Wl : depends on what you define as a bad boy>.< hahaha lolx
Wl: he must take care of me >.< a bit sick and tired of always trying to take care of others and look out for them and be big sis actually I want to be looked after too :) and I want to be small and looked after too
Qh: …>.< I cic same for me but I guess
Wl: you know what I guess it ll be more like you look after the guy lo haha qiu han you so liddat hahaha sure you look after him one
Qh: haha lol YAR LOH sure everytime like that

How bor liao our conversation must sound to you
Hahaha but I had so much fun!!!! :D and I told her lots abt choir and class stuff

I think basically our choir lacks the kind of team spirit and will to pull together in times to trouble and need
Its like most of us are pretty weak minded and wont make an effort to hype themselves up after being scolded or told off
And when things go wrong we tend to blame others like oh you wre airy or oh your voice cracked
Rather we should not really blame each other and other sections but try to help each other and encourage each other when we re feeling down and outt
Sounds like preaching but that’s what I think anyway
>.< so rather than tell a person she s airy
Maybe give her advice on what exercise she can do to cut down on the air
Its more like to point
And helps curb the problem right?
And basically most of us lack expression and emotions
We re pretty technical and too auto pilot and robotic
Even sometimes when I sing I feel I lose my emotions and expressions not long after singing with the choir cos I don’t really feel most of us being involved
I remember the feeling when im singing
Really in the strong
I d sort of like feel a chill going down my spine cos I feel the whole of me immersed in the song and I cant help myself
That’s been a long time
Its time to find that feeling again
:)

Im hoping things will go ok and we will pull through together
Cos we ve got the spirit and we can show the spirit
Lolx rj cheer >.< wonder if u re reading this heng and bready! Class miss u so much
Yepps
I want more practices cos I want to find a way
Such that we can bond together the whole choir
As in in voice
Cos even in voice we arent really together
Arghhhhh how to do this? More practiceeeeee I want more practiceee>.<
Haha maybe cos the prospect of singing with u guys is much better than that of doing homework >.< BLEAHHHHH homework suxxx
:S
I m looking forward to germany
To knowing you guys better cos you know traveling with people means you can get to see another side of them like maybe in the mornings when the chio bus wake up and look at themselves in the mirror and realize with a horror that their hair isnt nicely in place
:P pai seh that wasnt intentional!!! Sorry joke >.< but if u imagine it its really pretty funny lolx >.<
Personally I think my hair looks the best when I ve just woken up haha but my hair sux anyway so hu cares? >.< :P warhawhawhaw

I want to say sorry to the 156 pple and the chio bus
Im sorry if I seem detached and A S at times when we re together
But really sometimes the things you guys say ahh I just cannot get myself involved and cant bring myself to join in the conversation lo sorry ~>.<~
Really sorry I ll try to be less A S next time but can please cut down on the act bimboing? You guys find it fun and stuff but I just find it plain silly so I refuse to join in AT ALL
All I can say is sorry

Oh yeah guys lets have a choir outing or sthhh
YESHHHHH
And year ones lets do sth for seniors fare well
Like sing ( duh ) and maybe do dance
YAY I love dance lets do hip hop!!!! Yayayayayay
:D cant waitttt

Im suggesting we go seoul garden to eat cos can lots of pple and haben eaten dere for ages and also cos got students offer on week day
Any objections or suggestions? Im open to anythinggg
:D

Kao I write 6 pages liaoz and arghhh now is one piece shucks I go watch liaooxxx missed haf of it already!!!!
Nooooo san jiiii I want my san jiiii

Haha till next time bye


~jus+ LisTen 2 Mik@ AnD lEt's cHilLou+~