Haiz yepps so today was pretty much a waste of my time
But it was funnnn!!! :D
Hahaha lolx I guess it really feels good to have so much money in your pocket after saving up for so long
But I decided that between buying small lousy presents for many people
And buying good quality presents for a selected few
The second is better
:p
Haha lolx so I will only give prezzies to some people and they will be really GOOD prezzies! So are YOU wondering if are one of them?
Haha lolx for basics
You must be a senior
Duh~ farewell prezzies that I am buying xia so j ones dun dream and you zhi nope I haven’t thought of wat to give you as a VERY belated b day present
Shoot of course theres mich and rui xia s prezzie which are due next week
And of course qiu hans
I am SO DEAD
and SO BROKE

But anyway must start
Im sorry if I didnt smile to you today
If felt as if my heart would break
Cos If I did I was sure my feelings would be so bare
So transparent
So vulnerable
So exposed
So I kept to the expressionless face and chose safety over chance
im sorry If I seemed stone or cold
I never meant it to be that way
Cause I was burning to talk to you inside
but styll my icy exterior covered me up
how ironic it should be
that I want to smile and not smile at the same time
that I want to remain silent and speak at the same time
but I gave in
and forgave the chance and endless possibilities
cos I styll cant find the reason to believe
and the hope to trust
tell me if you do
and one day
just maybe
I will smile for you

Anyway shall start with the beginning
This morning I woke up at seven thirty when I really should haf woken up at six thirty to do stuff
I ve got so much stuff to do thats its pilling up nicely into a small heap
>.< haiz yep anyway I decided I want to get all of the seniors to write autograph for me even though there are a few that I don’t really know or don’t even say hi to
:P lolx I was so happy to realize there are less than 5 of such cases
Hahaha so shall make the first pages of my autograph books nice
Haha gave becky the gilrs one already and wondering hu to give the guys one to first
Probably s h a u n or chin yaw first
And of course sher hs and ck have u guys written any stuff or scribbled any graffiti into me lousy bookie yet? >.< haha no hurry take your time but better write arhh or else>.<

Yeah anyway I dilly dallied and took my time to walk to the bus stop SO SLOWLY that while I was crossing the bridge I realized I had missed both 13 and 93 and I was like oh shoot! Will have to take very long
But turns out after 10 mins which seemed like an eternity 13 came and I went to change and waited for 157
Which came so quickly that it made me feel so damn lucky and so good
And I saw becky on the bus and she was like so calm and composed
Compared the state I was in 10 min ago frowning and scowling and worried and thinking I would be late
But turns out I wasnt
When I reached there most of the people were outside for the lt to be open and for the lights to be switched on
Warm ups were okay except for that lovely grasscutter which so easily and elegantly covered up our voices such that we had to sing much louder to compete with it
Combined sucked basically
Even the prac we had for dayong before the combined was horrible
Wonder why cos we sounded perfectly ok before the guys came over to slack and watch us and give us pressure
All the pitches went out and we were in like such a pathetic state
>.< I was like feeling damn sad but of course since I was in a good mood my smiles covered it up
And must make an effort to be happy so can bounce for exsuta
I mean like out of maybe 10 sops there are already 8 who have the xian diao face and aren’t mentally concentrating so of course we cant sing properly
Seriously we shouldn’t keep wanting choir to be interesting cos basically its competition and we keep doing repition cos we hav to make the songs good
If we don’t make a conscious effort to hype ourselves up or to cheer ourselves up and make it interesting then seriously NO ONE will
So I promised myself cannot be one of those 8 xian diao sops
Try to be hyper
To to be awake
Try to concentrate VERY HARD
Haiz but we styll sucked but at least I tried
I tried and that’s what matters

With ck conducting combined without the altos basically I dun haf much to say
I guess he was pretty upset with us cos we seemed quite bad
But I was like really getting more and more pissed near the end of the session cos most of the faults he picked at I was pretty sure I made an attempt to correct them or even in the first place I made sure they weren’t there
But then again choir is a TEAM activity
So it’s the GROUP EFFORT that counts
Haiz I saw ash give the indignant look quite a few times too cos im pretty sure she made sure not to make those mistakes and to take note of some small things and yet we styll get chided for them
>.< near the end I felt like breaking down
Looking at the sky made me want to fly
Tsubasa
I think I understand the song liao sort of
The feeling of not wanting to be tied down and wanted to have the freedom of choice to do what you want the way you like it
I want to sing what I like
I want to sing it the way I like it
I don’t want to be tied down by words like a pocco or crescendo or accelerando or whatever
I want ti interpret the song my way and sing it such that I feel I best sing it
But of course I haven’t reached that stage yet im styll some small lousy pawn
So for now expressions and technicalities really do matter
But I d like to explore further into the field of feelings
:)
Haha okay too much crap and nonsense

After that we went to thai noodle house again to eat
And it was the same few people with a few new additions
( funny if mdm lau had wanted to say that she would have said the same few people with a few new found elements >.< haha are you at excited state or ground state? Haiz will miss her so much I feel so bad lyke I ve been such a lousy chem. Rep lo )
Stanley was there stoning and Thomas was there crapping dirty lame jokes of course
Funny but seems like anything that comes out of his mouth sounds dirty
Anyway after that we went to eat ice cream
Cheryls treat this time lolx
:)

Haha after that went to meet mich and you zhi and 961 to take bus to ikea for some shopping ( harmless to tell you all where I went to buy stuff for packaging for the prezzies rite and lyke as if its confirm u are one of those im gonna give the prezzies to >.< hahaha :p happy waiting seniors!)
And we met Theresa on the bus
Then we walked around in ikea which was so HUGE and FUN
And them you zhi was complaining about being hungry so we went to eat

Note By this time I was already quite full

Anyway we ordered some stuff
I din want to buy anything initially but mich convinced me to try some stuff so I did
Argh spent the seventy in my wallet so sad
Yesh I ordered sheperds pie and yz got roast beef and mich got the swedish meatballs
And my god
OMG the meatballs rocked! Lolx more like they rolled
Haha okay not funny but anyway they re super tasty
And I like the cranberry sauce though not WITh the meatballs but rather by itself
Haha and the pie was good except none of us liked what was under the top layer which was creamy and soft and mushy
Peas and beans
Yuck seriously me and mich were like digging for the super rare mushrroms lol
And saying what next time must ask them if they have non veg sheps pie
Hahaha yz s roast beef was so hard and not tender
But the sauce was pretty good
Yeah and after that yz was STYLL hungry so he went to get desert and he got a slice of cheesecake and almond choc cake or sth
Which both ROCKED
OMG

Note by this time by stomach was FULL

And he styll was hungry
Lolx and he din haf money of course so I lent him
Anyway can always treat you now then you treat me back next time
But I doubt I will be able to save enough money to treat people again this time got so much money cos I saved so hard for a special cause so you guys better like your prezzies

Anyway mich was recommending the soup
So we went to get the asparagus soup and princess cake which mich kept talking about
Gosh and both were GREEN in colour
I was expecting the soup to be yellowish green but OMG it was totally GREEN in colour
But seriously the taste is rich and delicious its really only the colour that puts people off
No wonder they don’t have pictures of the soup around the café
Lolx
The cake was really really really really SWEET
It was OMG sweet
Hahah and yz and mich sort of had two small bits each and gave up
And we were lyke laughing
And yz was amzed at my erm sweet tooth cos I finished the rest
Actually it was ok except by the end I was starting to feel a bit sick after eating so much dessert and stuff
>.< haha must bring more money to ikea next time

Anyway we went shopping after that
Cant mention too much but it was really fun pushing the huge trolley around the place and looking for stuff they have such nice stuff there gosh if I had so much money id sure spend it all on stuff that’s so nice that I buy on impulse but I regret cos when I reach home I wun really find any practical use for them
Haha that’s one long sentence
Anyway sum it up in one sentence
It was fun
And bready came to join us shortly after that
Wearing the HUNG shirt lolx he was the spilting image of William Hung lo
Hahahaha brings back fond memories anyway must really have a class outing soon miss all of those ho left so much
Lousy English but please don’t blame me
>.< hahaha yepps so I went out with 70++ but came home with like 10 bucks? That’s like damn sad but lucky I bought some nice stuff
Shoot now to save money for the REAL present spent so much on packaging and wasting money on eating and stuff
Haha but yz and mich owe me some money so its okay lahz :D
Then we went to BK and stoned and ate and I forced bready to buy a caramel pie to treat me

Note by this time I was BLOATED

God knows why I did that maybe just cos I felt like eating it and never tried it before but anyway I ate the darn thing and near the end I was like shit I really regret this man
Hahah mich had a small bite here and there but she was really eyeing the fries more
And there was this small argument over whether taro turnover was worth trying cos yz and bread were praising it to the skies and I was neutral and mich was skeptical about it
Lolx

OMG going on my fifth page liaoz :p pai seh lolx
Haha near the end liaozzz then we went home and took opposite directions on the mrt
Bready had some time for one on one session with you zhi lo
Hahaha and it was mich and me
And when I looked at mich I wanted to give her a hug cos she looked so vulnerable and so tired out and she looked like she would have liked a hug
>.< but I was too shy I guess maybe even stiff
Im not used to initiating hugs
But if u want one im VERY welcome
Du rong and sneey both said im good to hug and lie on
And I said co sim nice and round like a meat ball or char siew bun lolx
Rou4 bao1 thats me
Anyway I realized I haven’t been really spending time with micha nd yz and hui hui sicne 3 months and its like ahh its all coming back
Sorry guys will talk to you more and really miss you a lot
How can I make life better?
I have to make a conscious effort to keep up with the times
To remake friends that I may have lost due to the wear and tear of time
To make new friends and to maintain the friendship
To renew and maintain the long lasting friendship between me and my old friends
To cheer others up
To make others smile
To cheer myself up
To make myself happy
And to make myself smile

:)

What about you? What are you doing today to make life better for you and others whom you care about ?


~jus+ LisTen 2 Mik@ AnD lEt's cHilLou+~