Hey its me again.
Cant update this very soon so u guys will probably be reading this like maybe 3 days late or sth
Don’t blame me >.< I want to go online too
Its just that my dad changed the password for the dialing up online for the comp so I cant go online till I ask his what the heck the new password is
Seriously this must be a futile attempt to prevent me from going online
o_0
Anyway going online doesnt mean I don’t study what >.< what the heck

Sometimes when im on a bus my eyes tend to wander off and look at the stuff going by the window
I have wandering eyes and a thinking mind :)
Sometimes I feel like my parents build a cage for me
A nice strong sturdy cage made of cedar ( lolx ) which I just cant fly out off
Thus my freedom is very limited as compared to all those other people
My friends my classmates my seniors my juniors
For example
I cant just go out when I want to, I cant just do what I really want and really like
I cant just go where I want to go
I have to tell them in advance and get permission
May sound a little foreign to some of you but these are the normal procedures one has to go through in order to get approval to go out for my family

I guess maybe cause im a girl so my parents tend to worry more
Like last time the stay over at mich house I had to come up with a good reason to convince dad why he should let me stay over
Eventually he let me but our relations sort of worsened cause of that
And the class bbq at wei mings house too
Haiz >.< and I cant just stay out late as I like I sort of have a omni present curfew set depending on what time to reach home I deem proper and civil

All this rules and stuff comes pretty naturally and normally to me
But sometimes I will look outside the glass panel into the lush greenery and wonder what its like out there and really want to be rebellious and in obedient just for a day and go out and stay out as late as I like just for once
And enjoy the freedom that doesnt really belong to me
Not yet anyway
I understand my parents
They both came from strict families so this much freedom that im enjoying is already a big breakthrough so I should be contented
But sometimes I just wish >.<
I can wish, cant i? :) hahaha yepps
Anyway when the time comes im sure they do away with the whole cage and let me fly as and when I like
Maybe when im mature enough and no longer the brash impetuous girl I am now
:)
I remember last time after choir yz was asking me to go kbox cos him and bready and chao and ant were there
I really couldn’t go even though I had nothing on
I had to go home and be a guai gia >.< seriously

So I sort of was pretty worried that he was angry with me cos I couldn’t really tell much from his sms except that he sounded pretty upset and unhappy and impatient and not very happy that I wasn’t going to go

Mich went with wan jing though and kim went too and I heard they had a good time

We sort of fell out over that and sort of quarreled but the stuff got cleared up cos it was all a misunderstanding cos I was upset cos I thought he was upset with me
And he was worried cause he though I was upset for no reason
Hahaha in the end when I he said he wasn’t angry but really wanted me to come my heart sort of melted and my anger went away and I felt so childish and stupid >.<

Youzhirella hows the girl going? Must be good to her kz I will K you if u dun
Lolx
Its like you zhi is catching a good sheep loh
Hahaha okkie only S13 pple will understand that :P

And im really sorry I didn’t go watch movie with you guys today, ck >.<
I wanted to go
But cannot must be guai gia so next time can
So dun be angry wif me I also want to go very much ~>.<~
Haiz hope my dad leaves for china soon then can go outtt yAy~ :p
Lolx im a really BAD BAD girl but dun blame me hahaha my mom is much more lenient compared to dad mom always tries to keep one eye open one eye closed
:p thanx mom

Haha so you guys watched the day after tomorrow today :)
Hahaha lolx must give movie review and tell me what its lyke
Anyway if I went today will be so A A its like all the pple will be in pairs and I will be so extra and like light bulb so leave you guys so have fun and watch :)
Except maybe sher will be on her on >.< shucks but hs should be there rite
What abt auddie hmmm cute pink princess

Haiz green court jester slacking at home listening to songs and wanting to go out and go online very muchhhhh >.< damn sad lo

Yay now listening to misia >.< in the sky its like damn nice lo :)
She s so free spirited and her voice is so powerful and strong that it like can bring you places and see stuff you ve never seen before

As for mika her voice is low and sexy and a bit hoarse and there s this magic about her singing that I cant quite put my finger on but I must say im madly addicted to her
:)
Hahaah lalalalove song will still be the best of course
Its like a celebration of love in love itself
It feels like you re drowning in something that you re swimming in and the water flowing just never seems to end
Shucks. Im sprouting nonsense again:p

I like misa s shing star cos when she sings its its like shes singing of a love so small so insignificant yet so strong and brilliant and its shining brightly in the night sky
And its like so small and not very different
Nothing to make it stand out
But its just its simplicity and long lasting will that makes it different and special compared to all the others

You know what I mean? A small gentle love so insignificant that you forget it sometimes but when you need it it will always be there and it will last a lifetime
:)
I really should stop sprouting nonsense but I cant help it!

I wish that even if im not very outstanding I can be like a small shining star cos id like to contribute and play my part too even if im not in the lime light
I d like to be simple yet special in my own way
 I hope that when I smile at you you can see my eyes smiling at you too

Hahaaha yay

More about me
Well in life there are so many roles to play
But in a drama there are basically two roles to play
The main role or the supporting role
I find that often in life I end up playing the supporting role
Watching other act out their own story
Happy sad special exciting memorable simple
And I find I have nothing much of my own
Maybe cos of this I tend to feel for the supporting roles in shows more often than those main ones hmmm
Im thinking
When will my story play? What will my ending be? What will my story be about?
Im such a simple yet complicated character
People tend to over look the supporting role but I realize they play a huge role in stories
Hahaha so don’t underestimate me! You never know when my story will play
Till then I m still happy be be your supporting character
To help you
To cheer you up
To make you smile
Is my pleasure

U know what qiu han I think I know what you mean
Making others happy can make me happy too
:)

And I d like to say thanks to those who always try to cheer ME up and make ME smile 
The other day I was sroning during the last few min of announcements for choir
And joyce thought I was sad I guess so she patted me on my head and asked me to cheer up and not be sad
Usually if u did that id probably K you in a minute
But I thought for a while and realized how nice she was

And also ash too sometimes :p
Haha yepps at the ice cream place island creamery ck also realized I wasn’t talking much so he nudged me and asked me not to stone
Actually I was thinking and listening
If I don’t say anything it doesn’t mean im sad
It may just mean that I enjoy being with you guys and I want to listen and know more about you guys :p hahaha im not sad ALL the time you know

Yepps

Sometimes I enjoy your company so much I just don’t want the dinner to end
But as the Chinese saying goes
Tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi
:p all good things must come to an end
But I guess some endings are beginnings in a way themselves


Haha lolx you know what I mean?

Haha shall stop here or else pple will complain abt my font again
And abt having sore eyes o_0 hu ask u guys wanna read my blog!
:p complain so much I make it private then see how u guys read! Hahaha lolx
Shall go have a good nap and dream about my future :D
Who will it be? And when will it be? I want to know.....:)



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