Hey me again.
>.< lolx
Been bugged by some pple (whose names I wun mention) to update so here I am
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Well what I can say is that the past few days I ve been going through something vaguely like a emotional rollercoaster
You know the mad and crazy ups and the really depressing downs
This mad frenzy
But I m glad to say I ve sort of gotten off the rollercoaster and enjoyed the ride

You know sometimes you get jealous when you like someone but its not the same way back
And maybe sad
But I guess I m pretty happy that im past that
I realized liking a person should be like
You just want to watch the person from far
And see him/ her smile
And see him/ her be happy
Even if it only lasts for a small moment
Its not selfish possession nor wanting to own the person
In fact if you really like someone you d be glad if other people liked him/ her too
Cos he/ she is really such a great person

Argh im sidetracking
Listening to tao s whose heart does the heart symbolize?
Hahaha
Lovely song and it totally suits my mood now

I guess I don’t really want the person to like me back as much
If the person does it’s a added bonus of course
But I m happy just to see the person happy and im at peace with myself
Cos I sorta know the person belongs to someone else
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Its such a weird feeling

Hahaha digressing!
Shucks anyway today can be described in one word
Smooth
Really really smooth
Hahaha sort of quite happy so I m pretty pleased too

Now listening to twenty two
Tao again
tao rox!!! >.< love him xia
got a sms from qiu han just now
miss her so much
so much I just want to hug her now
even though we re close friends we don’t really hugg much or sth
maybe cos we re both less expressive and not so erm
haha but what I really want to do know is give her a HUGE BIGGGG bear hugggg
I want to give you one too! Want one? Tell me I ll be glad to give you one anytime
Hahaha lolx well lessons sort of sucked today cos I knew with a sinking feeling that I din understand what the heck was going on and I am going to have to mug my holiday away which is totally impossible cos I put family friends and choir infront of studies >.<

Shall not reveal my marks for the maths test
If u want to know can ask me but I might not want to tell you
Only will say that I got low enough to meet the criteria for class lectures
Seriously im not joking I am THAT lousy and THAT slack
Shit
See ck who said that I cant make it for class lectures which is for the lousiest 3 per cent of the population >.< im GOOD LOH

>.< must mugg cannot slack liao esp for chem. And phys and econs and maths
Hey wait. That makes it EVERYTHING WAT
SHIT >.< aww manz im gonna haf to mug my life away
Booo anyway im not that sad just that I had my revelation a bit too late

But turns out I wasn’t the lowest in class
Stupid yichao got lower than me by two marks
DARN! We were betting on who would get lower and I must treat him liaoz >.< dun care its only two marks so I REFUSE! Frmph! Yichao ah he s really pretty smart actually but he s really too slack and doesn’t take anything seriously
Ponning class and not doing work and like not really studying for tests
Maybe that s why I couldn’t trust him…..

Ahhh digressing again anyway im NOT gonna treat yichao loh
NO WAY even if it’s a cup of kopi o I REFUSE haha but he s really a 100% ah beng lolx

Hmmm the results for the interview come out liaoxx and I got in
Lucky me
Erm actually all those who ran got in >.< its like o_0
Hahahah im kinda not very surprised so now its all up to the speech which I definitely suck at >.< heaven bless me and protect me and prevent me from blabbering and sprouting nonsense
Politics suck
Asking people to vote for you sucks
Im not gonna do that im gonna say if you think im the one for the post then please vote for me but if u think I suck please don’t vote for me
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Choir was pretty good today
Like we had sectionals which was so totally NOT FUN but I still tried my best to look interested and pay attention
We sounded pretty good cept the bounce wasn’t there for exsuta and maybe most of our expressions were pretty stale
Was really trying to smile to keep up the spirits and the bounce but it was pretty hard with so many xian diao faces and grim looking ones
But we re good LOH hahaha

I think its really hard on the music comm. People
Seeing them like this makes me worry
And watching them having quarrels and like disagreements makes me wonder what will happen to MY BATCH next year? Will we have the same situation? I guess we will all have our fair share of problems but its really up to us up to our will and determination to pull together and get through the hard times

I know we will get there cos I know we can do it
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I like choir
So I believe in it

Time passed so fast that I thought 20 min had passed when in actual fact it was 1hour I just din want it to end we should really practice more considering the state we re in >.< but dun give up and dun lose faith! JIA YOU NJ CHOIR cos I know WE WILL PULL THROUGH TOGETHER! >.<

yAy~ feel so much better
good luck to all those running and also to those 7 contenders of mine
cos I know you all are good people and we all have strengths and weaknesses
I guess its really up to the choir to decide who to choose
Hahah  whatever it is I hope we will all be happy
hAard but I hope so

ehz den was waiting around the lt for the pple to get out and eat dinner but they took so long that I wandered off to the other side
saw the angklung so I naturally searched for my dear darell
and there she was
so pretty ! in her plain white tee and colourful batik sarong
and she was smiling at me
and my heart sort of melted and I was so happy
I felt so bad cos she was like sort of asking me if I was gonna watch her performance but I said no tix >.< felt so guilty
See lah its all u guys fault sher ck sida chin yaw angela beng hee
Haha but I promise that I will go watch her next year definitely I swear

Darell miss u so much even though still see u around in school but like no chance really to talk I promise to save a day to go out wif u and wei ling haha u guys better be free too

Dinner was good cos we went to the thail restaurant which we didn’t get to eat at the last time hahaha the noodles were pretty good but I was happy I guess not really cos of the food but rather cos of the people whom I was eating with

 its like really the people who make the difference
Like last time during 1st 3 months me yz hui hui bready and heng stoned at ulu mac there and the mac was pretty much nothing special
What made it special was the fond memories I had there cos of them
Then

:)

And then we were talking about shu s prezzie which sida said wrongly and said my present instead lolx and ck was saying no prezzie needed for me

I suddenly remembered yz saying that he had trouble picking a prezzie for me durng v day cos I was such a weird person or should I say a weird girl
I was saying dun want what soft toys and girly stuff
Then flowers also dun want cos real ones will die waste money and kill lives then fake ones have no sincerity
:P
Lolx im such a picky person u should just forget abt getting me anything
But actually I d be happy wif anything as long as I really cherish u as a friend
:) it’s the thought that counts rite? I really think so

But I tend to lyke to give pple presents with special meanings like hand made cards and like maybe nice long hand written letters and hand made stuff cos I think its these stuff that have special value and make you really cherish them even if the prices of the paper is like really cheap the meaning in it is priceless
You know what I mean?

Woah I suddenly realized this is a really LONG entry 
Haha finally got to eat island creamery today the ice cream there just rocks man

Well we sort of forced jun kai to treat us but we paid him a little back :p
Haha there was cookies and cream
And another tub of caramel
Ck kept attacking the cookies and cream one
Dunno y lolx
But as I was looking at the caramel one which ck said he didn’t like and sher said tasted a bit bitter
I felt the caramel ice cream was sort of lyke me

Like the first spoon you have of it
It has this subtle omni present bitter aftertaste
But the more you eat the sweeter it gets
Except it never really gets much sweeter but rather there s a limit to its sweetness
I didn’t really like the cookies and cream one maybe cause I found the flavour too common and like maybe too sweet? I dunno its just that the caramel one tasted more rich despite being bitter and all
>.<

Im really weird now personifying ice cream
Hahahaha :p I am a weird person

Well I guess its part of being me
The bitter sweet part
Like there are mainly two moods to me
Happy
And sad
Usually im happy hyper loud friendly cheerful vibrant energetic and restless
But there are times when I feel another emotion overwhelming me
And I slowly realize that its depression and a little thinking and reflection
When I m not talking to you
When im not smiling and stuff
It doeasnt mean im stoning
I mean I rarely over stone usually theres like lots of stuff going on in my mind
So if my eyes are wondering dun blame me im thinking
And being sad is a part of me I cant and don’t really want to change
Cos if im happy too much of the time
I d take all this for granted
Sometimes should calm down and think and reflect on things and maybe make yourself a little sad even so that you will really cherish the happy moments that you have
Then in life you would have experienced both the happy and the sad

This is me
What about you?
Its getting really late and I styll haf to do my slo prosposal so I ll update this tomorrow >.< hopefully
lolx



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