today i was in a sluggish mood the whole time
the day started off with me and joyce taking the same bus as sharon phua and ducro

wasnt that bad anyway
but it was really quite funny cos crow was infront and sp was at the back

we unanimously agreed that crow is better than sp
so we went up and greeted him and quickly left for the gate

and then i went for morning singing session and ended up soaked in sweat as usual

haiz

basically lessons sucked, still haben gotten back the maths test paper yet
sorta happy but i know this is just prolonging the agony
:(
wanted to save money so i slept in class during break time and lunch
but still ended up spending 2.30 when i went down to the canteen with kim they all to dicuss pw...>.< aww manz

pe was okay, ran 3 rounds fer warm up...i was running real fast in front cos i wanted to finish the run and end the pain fast and i felt left out cus the cheerleading pple were all toking and cheering and singing cheerleading stuff and i din noe any of it...>.<

during chem like i realised the whole class probably only me and fan is responding to mdm lau...sad cos shes such a passionate teacher and she s got so much to give and we ve got so much to learn and get from her

anyway this sluggish mode went all the way to choir...
during choir it was worse...and plus the air con, all i wanted to do was sleep...and i suddenly felt so sad and somber for some reason which i will not state

this blog is getting too public...haiz but heck i shall continue

singing was ok
and going home with 156 pple and some seniors was fun...but i was really there...
felt so guitly abt leaving mich in school to search for her wallet by herself...worse still the 156 pple some din even noe she wasnt there until zhang and shaun got off...>.<

no problem?...see thomas, this is the problem

should have stayed back
after all she s my classmate and friend
but was feeling really tired and din wanna stay behind
luckily messaged her and she said she was glad none of us stayed cos later she found it in her bag...>.< lol
blur queen lah she

sad

cos there s so many things i wanna do
but things are just not within my grasp
just outta reach
outta control
>.<

i wanna cheer people up
but i m not even happy myself
i wanna do something to make myself happy
but i m just not happy
i want you to smile like you mean it scold like you mean it and comfort me when you mean it
but sometimes im forced to smile when i dun feel like
i wanna do something meaningful
but i find that i can do it
i wanna be the person i wanna be
but its really tiring
i wanna talk to qiu han on the phone, i really miss her
but shes got test this week, gotta muggg
i wanna hang out wif darell and weiling, miss them so much
but we re all busy and haf our own schedules
i wanna be a good junior
but more often than not, i suck
i wanna be so much
but i think i am worth so little
i wanna make people smile
but i find it hard smiling myself
i wanna be a good friend
but i fail so miserably at it
i wanna be a good daughter
but i such a bad temper and i just dun listen at times
i wanna be a good sister
but im such a unreasonable person
i wanna be a good student
but im so slack at times
i wanna make a difference or at least be a part of the difference
but i m pretty clueless abt how to change pple s lives, and worse still, i cant even change my own life for the better, how to help others?

i have so many things to do
so many smiles to smile
so much time to spend
so much love to give
so many people to care about
so much frenship to share

:)

im okay
cos it be a new morning when i wake up tomorrow and i can assure u i will be smiling when u find me balled up in one side of the stairs at the lt during choir, the favourite spot i love to sit at

:D




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