It's friday!

but I'm feeling tired and have nothing to be extremely happy about.

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我觉得，对我而言，这辈子可能，

全世界最幸福的感觉，

就是我闭上双眼，

把眼睛再张开时，

你在笑着，躺在我身边。

夸张吗？我觉得一点也不。

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illogical fears.

Freud once said 'dreams are wish fulfilment', but at the same time, sometimes dreams (nightmares, particularly) are your deepest, darkest fears, broken down; concealed, encrypted- awaiting your psychoanalysis, awaiting your deciphering.

Sometimes I have dreams so illogical, that the fear of it, when dreaming, is so real, real that I jolt out of my dreams into reality, eyes wide open, veins throbbing, hand over my heart; I have to rationalize with myself ("this is so ridiculous, it couldn't happen...it's really unlikely to anyway"), and yet even if/when I do so, some part of the nagging worry and bad after taste remains.

The best way to wipe it off is to dream a good dream, tonight.

hmmmm....