nobody can help you unless you want to get better.

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(and) I want to get better.

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change.

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"I realised that you like to take pictures of children; and I like (to take photos of) old people."

"I know, I know..."

"Old people... have more feel-"

"Yeah, and children- they don't conceal."

it's because they're unabashedly forthright.

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when something is about to swallow you whole-

you can let it engulf you,

or you can swallow it whole.

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why?

because I believe that you should try everything,

before deciding what you really want.

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sometimes when people ask me why I do things, it can be difficult to explain.

it could be because the reason is something embarrassingly private, or it could be because under normal social context it's highly inappropriate to reveal the (true) reason, or it could even because I doubt? that even if I did supply the real reason, would it suffice? Would it satisfy the person's curiosity? or perhaps the true reason doesn't really matter to the person at all-

What does it matter to you?

How is it your business?

Who are you to me?

it was/is a mere question, a mere conversation starter.

Some small talk, just a bit of extra flavour to add to the equation.

Nothing lost, nothing (substantial) gained if the complete and full truth was not supplied.

in that way sometimes I do suppose I am rather despicable,

but that's the way things are/I am.