2011, hullo!

i can hardly believe it- a whole year has flew by without me noticing-

i did my final semester, danced for the last time for DP, went for my last ever (possibly) kendo grading, graduated, found a job, got my foot fractured on company day, did special sem exams in crutches, got (kinda) well again, went back to work, got my first real pay check, flew to London, came back to SG, was so busy i had to work on Sunday, went to Zoukout for the first time, thought I was in love but was not, met truckloads of new people; it seems like so many things happened, but at the same time, as if nothing did and i'm back where i started.

i can't say i'm proud of myself, but it feels comfortable-

comfortable.

Q was talking to me about her new year resolutions- going jogging before work every morning (oh good grief), saving money to buy a flat so she can realize her grand plans to be a landlord and just sit and relax and collect the rent, spend her money wisely and invest in stocks, etc.

Sometimes i really do envy her enthusiasm/fervour when it comes to things like these; it's really incredibly cute/it makes me incredibly happy to see her talk with that glimmer of excitement in her eyes!

then she asked me,

and i didn't know really, because i hadn't really thought of any-

it's like those random birthday wishes that you make every year;

you always make the same one every year (at least i do) but it never comes true,

and then when the time comes you feel you should make a new one,

but you end up making the same old one again.

it's like that.

so i gave it a bit of thought-

my new year resolution is: I want to be happy.

now comes the hard part-

making it come true.
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仿佛记得第一次听见这旋律时心碎的感觉。

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你笑着的时候，眼睛会眯成一条线。

你说话的时候，很温柔。

你的世界，恨精彩。

你，握着我的手。

你说，你爱我。

不能让你快乐，

对不起。

因为，已经忘记怎么去爱另一个人。

现在的我，

只爱寂寞。