i don't know why i always feel so drained after meeting new people-

it's fun, it's exciting, and i generally have a great time, plus it's a great way to network, blah blah blah, (insert other meaningful reasons here-->) but i can't help for a couple of seconds in between- spacing out, getting distracted by other small things, looking at other people talking, listening to the noises from the surroundings-

it's just that it takes effort, to appreciate things/people/conversation,

to find things in common, to share experiences, to think of witty things to say-

i know there are only so many people that you can hit it off immediately with and have endless things to talk about; that chemistry (mostly) has to be built up, just like how the dynamics between people become more stabilized? after time/with practice, but still, it's takes a bit of effort, and sometimes when the conversation ends and there's a lull, the dread slowly fills in, and i'm a little like

'okay, here it comes'

(but) still (secretly) a part of me wishes to be able to find someone i can genuinely talk to very easily and freely without much effort. It's a nice feeling you know- hitting it off with someone;

it's like you're a dam that's been trapped for loads of years and suddenly someone broke the dam and you're just talking and talking and talking like the water is just spilling out and flooding everywhere like it's crazy.

everything takes a bit of effort, i guess.

well.

on an entirely different matter-

talking to so many people, and knowing that people are working 3 days a week, 8 months a year; doing travel blogging in their PJs as for a living; making the switch from biomed to music-

it's really rather inspiring and thought-provoking.

it's just that i haven't really figured out what i want to do, for now.

taking things one step at a time?

i am always such a lazy ass.