non-believer.

or whatever you call it-

agnostic, pagan, atheist, free-thinker, yada yada (ignoring for the moment the very slight subtleties and differences)

i've never (really) believe in an omni-potent, omni-present incredible non-human being's existence. Yes you can thank me for the words i've said, the things i've done (for you) but never ever (pls thanks) attribute it to some non-existent being by saying that 'God spoke through me'

i cannot put into words how gross it makes me feel- the level of repulsion is mad-insane. If i say anything, it is out of my own accord- if i do anything, it's because i feel like and i want to.

God doesn't 'speak through me'-

because if it's one lesson life has taught me, it's to (as much as possible) depend on yourself.

Secretly i believe religion is for the (mentally) weak. Biased as i sound/am, it's the approach- it's just wrong to paw people and attack/prey on their and swoop in to provide 'divine intervention' when people are at their emotional low- it always happens like this- when people are about to die; when people lose loved ones, when people lose some physical ability etc yada yada. That's when 'God's followers' swoop in at the opportune moment and provide some clearly needed mental and emotional solace.

oh don't worry, God will help you. Don't be sad, lean on God's strength. yada yada.

is it even ethical to do this kind of thing? =/

loads of people are living without religion/faith and doing perfectly well. Even if you reason with them, try to convince them etc they wouldn't convert over their dead body. But when they hit life's lowest someone religion has to take the front seat- and particularly for loads of cases i've heard/seen- it's Christianity mostly. brothers and sisters and Mr God.

why don't you depend on yourself? or your family, or your friends, for that matter?

i've always been a strong believer of 'no man is an island'-

knowing clearly that humans are social creatures; we form societies to facilitate group living mainly for convenience and efficiency it seems but the truth is that we're emotionally vacant and need (the existence of) others to supplement that emptiness. It gives us meaning.

In the worst, lowest times of my life i've always been able to count on some (other) human being.

It could have been my mother (greatest of all, better than God, if he is existent anyway. don't care, i could burn in hell-), my secondary school friends, my roommate, my hall friends etc-

and it could have been and was (countless times) actually just myself.

because i truly treasure the essence of living and of relationships that i have with those around me; because i believed in whatever strength and value that lies deep within me-

that's what helped me and enabled me to pull through whatever difficulties or emotional troughs.

i understand that 'spreading the good of God' is part of your religious doctrine or whatever, but basically i can see it clearly- drawing parallels between multi-level marketing and religion, particularly Christianity; It's all about 'wanting to share good things' in all due respect;

You care, therefore you want to save me from burning in hell;

you care, therefore you want to share 'good products/services'

yes except i don't want to buy your products/services, nor do i want to sell them-

i don't subscribe to your religion, neither to i want to promote it-

which part about God's grace mentioned forcefully trying to convert unwilling people?

if you subscribe to religon yes, go ahead by all means. I am in no sense championing antireligion or a hater of Mr. God. In fact i actually believe in the freedom and right to practice all religions- religions are beliefs/faiths; things that cannot be explained scientifically (well it's a matter of contention but), nor discussed rationally- simply because i think that people have the right and freedom to choose whatever they want to believe.

However, do respect the choices of others.

Don't ask me to refer to whatever verse/section of the Bible because ' i exhibit that verse perfectly'.

cause if even i do, it's cause i am Wenlin.

not because i am an object of God's creation.

(yes i could burn in hell but life is short and afterlife is of no relevance to me- disintegrating into nothingness/old age/disease i fear not; what's important is having once lived)

and the Mr God/your religion/the bible is irrelevant to me.

thanks.