could i do it?

maybe i could say,

hello,

my name is wenlin.

nice to meet you.

what's your name?

maybe i could start from scratch again-

i could start from before i knew you-

and try to start knowing you

from a nobody-

i know i said wouldn't be able to talk to you, or say hello,

but maybe if i didn't know you as me, now,

but if i started from scratch again-

would it be okay?

would things be okay?

would you forgive me?

would i forgive myself?

cause i can't really imagine not talking to you for a very very long time.

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i kind of quarrelled with a friend and now we're not talking (i guess i started it first), and i don't really know what to do, because i'm not sorry for what we quarreled or had a misunderstanding about, nor am i sorry for what i said or did, but i am feeling sorry if i'm going to have to live the rest of my life not talking to him or living separate lives and to pretend like we don't know each other? if we meet on the street-

to act as if the other doesn't exist-

a couple of times in my life

in these few years actually, it's only ever been since i started studying at uni, staying in hall-

i don't know what to do, because i don't really want to make the first step-

since i don't think that i was in the wrong

but i want to make amends

cause i dont want to lose this friend-

it's some times i feel this sense of remorse/regret

and then i keep replaying some/those scenes in my mind

what if i didn't say this/what if i didn't do that

if i could turn back the time-

oh but i cannot.

it's just an example, it's just one friend-

but to countless people i just want/wanted to-

i want to be sorry,

i want to say i'm ok now,

i want to ask if you're fine,

if it would be okay to talk a while, even if just occasionally

but that first step,

making amends,

regaining contact

[is] it is so difficult?

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