i just totally deleted the previous post cause it was so kaobei.

basically i'm just feeling shitty because something bad happened and i really think i totally am not at fault at it, and it's kind of a group thing so we're all penalised, it's a mistake undoubtedly but really i'm finding it hard to accept/swallow because i didn't make the mistake but to blame the person who kind of made the mistake doesn't help matters and i feel bad about being angry at the person cause maybe as a group we could have done something to make sure none of us would have made the mistake and also i guess i would feel bad if i made the mistake but i'm still angry at the person because no matter how i think about it the bottom line is

i'm being penalised and i totally don't deserve it.

:(

that's why bystander effect is totally a lesson for life-

at least something angel and i will remember forever

not to assume that other people know/remember things

cause sometimes people just don't.