don't have formal wear,

don't have a nice photo,

haven't printed my cv,

haven't updated my cv,

haven't read up on it,

don't want bump into people,

haven't done any preparation,

don't think 'll be able to find any-

don't want to be competing with others,

there are a truckload of reasons why i am this reluctant to go to the career fair

[or i could really go in the stuff i diy-ed and take brochures from every booth and then walk anyway like i really didn't care]

i know i should be but

i'm not ready for all this yet.