this person must be the person with the most kiam pah face and the worst attitude i have ever met.

in rather nice terms i think 'scrum of the earth' describes him rather aptly

maybe if we were friends i might have thought differently;

maybe if we were playing sports on the same team, for the same cause;

but on multiple occasions i find examples/reality confirming my possible-initial bias.

it's not that i dislike the person really; i did try to approach these situations/this person with a more open-minded attitude. i was friendly, i was polite.

but really, seeing the way this person treats other people and certain things,

the way this person doesn't bother to listen to the person speaking,

giving the couldn't be bothered attitude,

showing his kiam pah face

i really really feel like he deserves a beating.

K

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KIAMPAH AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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i think i need to go for meditation courses sigh

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if you see something in the store that you really like but isn't for sale, since it'll never be yours, it's much better/you should really just walk alway,

but why do i get the feeling of keep wanting to go back,

just to have a second look at it?

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you smile and say, with a sigh of relief

'you're just the same, like before'

and i can see that you're comforted,

but is it that we constantly look for familarity,

because we seek comfort and security in things familar,

or have you failed to see the change/changes?

i open my mouth,

wanting to rebut, but

then i decided to smile,

and then forget about it anyway

because maybe,

it was unwillingness on my part

to show, if any, of this/these change/changes [to you]

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sometimes when people ask me questions,

i avoid answering, or change the topic, or give non-committal answers,

because i'm really thinking,

how can you not know the answer?/do you not really know the answer?

and if,

if you really don't know the answer,

sometimes i don't think i can bear,

actually saying the answer out loud

and having my pride thrown out in the open

it's just impossible/i can't do it

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i want to be on the outside

not like this