i know sometimes i'm unreasonable [but only if its because i know you know that i am] and so i just tend to let things be that way [i don't really know why] but i can't contain my disappointment? and frustration sometimes when you say things and act irresponsibly. you can't just say that oh, you'd wanna come back to hall and stuff and say these things to me because then in return i'll have expectations and when reality doesn't surface as how you said/promised, then i'll just reply you [rather] coldly and say

'i knew it'

[i know you got miffed when you saw it and i'm sorry but i was pms-y already anyway....

i told you today was a bad day already.... sigh]

i don't mean to be mean but....

hall is not a place that you can come and go as you please [unless you're a big shot of course, but even then, i think you should give the place and people a little bit of respect], and when you left that semester i already accepted that you would be gone, and i was okay with it; since the time when you told me your health condition wouldn't be suitable for you to continue training, i've already gotten used to heading to training with the 8kg worth of gear alone, and since the semester you said you'd be leaving hall and shifting home i've already grown rather fond of taking 151 bus rides home on weekend/weekdays alone,

and it's not as if if you want to come back you can just do so with a snap of your fingers or twitch of your eyebrow [as the frustration you are undergoing right now, evidence of it]

and so/but how can you just say now so easily that you want to come back?

and so/but how can you just say now so easily that you will come back?

sometimes i don't get you, J.

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the funny thing is i deleted it and i never [consciously] committed any part of my memory to it but how come when you message me i can immediately recognise your number?