now that my fisheye 2 is here, [which i am really rather excited about] the next goal will be to get a diana instant back, which will probably burn a hole in my wallet. but that won't be so soon rather, i guess, considering that the diana f+ nightcap is still brand new in packaging, unopened, untouched.

i'm quite happy that i've used up all of the plastic wrappings and recycled all the parcel envelopes i've kept from purchases; it's like a sign for me to start online shopping [for clothes] again but i'll see how long i can put this off until maybe after a while when i come back from shoppingland.

looking at my schedule i like that it's somewhat packed but not quite so bad;

somehow it feels nice to be busy;

you know you can't complain;

'there's nothing to occupy [my] time' just doesn't suffice;

yet there are moments that i wish i could just sit/lie and nua endlessly....

and also,

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i felt rather miffed about being distrusted about things as such. maybe it wasn't distrust; upon clarification it really wasn't; might have been oversensitivity on my part, but still-

things like these, that are delicate, that i thought we had mutual understanding on-

i was disappointed, with the lack of faith.

but i'm glad we talked about it;

about our insecurities,

about my certainty,

because really,

if we don't state our stand and make things clear,

we can't be really good friends.

i'm just glad everything worked out well, and things are out in the open now.

and in the end this is what i said[or something like this]:

'platonic friendship requires a lot of trust.

maybe not understanding, because you may think that the guy i like is a bastard, or i may think that the girl you like is unreasonable; but what we need is real trust in each other.'

to have trust.....

is a difficult thing.

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there's nothing much to say;

i guess everyone is doing okay

everyone is doing fine

everyone is well;

[i hope] time has toughened [me] up;

look forward already!

and stop dwelling on senseless mindless things!

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i miss yeeeee because i have no one else to do the '=<' face to already