“You were almost here. You should have taken just one step more…”

watching the most recent episode of 'you're beautiful' just reconfirmed/reminded me of the feeling that i'm falling for the 'second-best-always' complex again and/but sometimes i can't help but/to think that it's such an overused and cliched kind of element that they just have to inject into idol dramas to make female viewers slam the table or/and look forward to every next episode but undeniably i have plunged head first into it, with no turning back.

Admittedly i am growing to like the first male lead better, somewhat, but i doubt it will ever resemble the fondness for the second-best/lead as things are for now.

but what makes things more heartbreaking?

sometimes as much as you try, some things are just out of control.

[on another note, i am somewhat enjoying/looking forward to thursdays and fridays and drama recaps of this series because the characters are interesting, the acting rather decent, though the plot somewhat overused. the whole girl-disguised-as-guy-forced-by-circumstances situation has been played through and through 8753234567 times across japanese/taiwanese/korean idol drama contexts yet viewers/scriptwriters/directors/tv broadcast stations seem to have undying faith that it will continue to draw viewers.]

sometimes you just fall for the same crummy old shit all over again,

don't you?