i can't believe it but i think very soon i will have to adopt the avoidance technique.

i cannot ignore it since i know my gut is extremely accurate at sensing this

this kind of thing that i cant bring myself to say or spell out loud out of

out of fear of the whole world knowing 

in the end i guess i'm a coward too.

don't ask, don't ask, 

and everything

will be alright....

please don't ask....

i think when the exams are over

i will have a good think about things

maybe ask hc, qh, qp, wei and miao about it.

sometimes i just don't know what's good for myself.

----------------------------------------------------

i have freaking a lot of clothes.

and a bunch of freaking good friends.

with every year it seems to be harder to leave

leave this freaking place that sometimes freaking

breaks my heart

the longer i stay

the more reasons i find

to convince myself i shouldnt

go home

sigh.

a blink of an eye

and i'm now a year 3/4

and my wardrobe is x n bigger

and my social circle is x n larger

and also these friends are x n dearer to me...

stupid eusoff hall.

i hate you more than anything.

i wish i moved out in semester 1 year one

when j was still here and saying he would burn you down.

stupid eusoff hall.

how i will miss you

miss this

miss everyone

miss everything

when next year it's this time again.

sigh. 

let's not think so far, okay?