i wanted to write a lengthy post, to myself, to try to analyse the problems and learning points of my experience as the president of nus kendo club over the course of this year, but i realised it was too difficult to write anything that would really dwell into the depths of these issues and not indirectly offend people or talk about some matters that might be rather sensitive, 

so 

i will keep it to myself.

except that, 

this was the first time that i took up real leadership role that entailed having to give direction to a club and committee and though it's stupid and really no point since my time is up and i really want to handover to the young ones i still regret that there were things that could have been done better, times when i could have tried even much much much harder, to pull back things that had gone off track, people that were losing drive and direction [myself included, at some points in time], been really really more careful, and be there to care and concern for/about people/things but i was not.

because i was/am a human, 

and because i was/am imperfect.

but there are no second chances. 

and i had my go, so it's time.

nevertheless,

i am glad i took up the role.

thanks wenhao,

i will always remember your words.

now, 

to handover to the young ones.

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my polaroid came.

from across the seas,

in a nicely taped box, 

smelling vintage and free,

it came.

i love ebay.