i know im just using some cheap tactic stalling for time but now it's the most PR thing to do. 

maybe its just that i fear if i give the ultimatum things between us in future

would be awkward and everything, no matter how we try to avoid.

and everyone says 'let's continue to be friends' but inside 

we all know it's not gonna happen, like hello? how?

it's too bad, really.

but i keep thinking,

maybe i should try vegetables?

why must it only be meat?

i know of such things as

'acquired taste'

and my love of green tea is one damn good example,

but does this really apply/can it be generalisable to this situation?

i think forget it.

it's crazy really.

but,

more importantly,

i have 3 days of study break left

and 123457898765432543 things to do.

just submitted my 2000-word-40%-of-final-grade

non-examinable-level 4000-module to my adjunct prof. 

wanted a break

so i replied postcards,

to J, sihui, and ngeezy and

J doesn't write to me much, but

i guess i decided to write to him anyway

[what do i stand to lose? we don't talk much]

and my attenuator-headphones came via registered mail today.

it's probably lying somewhere on the counter in the office.

will go and collect it from liang and see if it's really good.

the ultimate device of self-alienation.

cancel out all voices, noises, sound

PURE MUSIC.

hopefully it's worth every cent.

okay okay,

study for pl3242

which is on tuesday

open book but haven't touched

makes me wonder how i got a decent grade for the position paper

and managed to smoke my way through the weekly forums

and squeezed a last-minute critique paper not long ago

oh well.

university life.