what i cannot understand is,


why does friendship between girls [sometimes] have to be built based on the number of times you accompanied her to the toilet, to fongseng to ta pau something to drink; money you lent her to buy the drinks; exchanged juicy gossip about other related[or unrelated anyway] people; times you listened to her and laughed at her [not so funny] joke?

when the person is nice usually i make the effort to laugh at the joke,
but sometimes i find it hard to break into a new social circle.

this is just so not me.

and it's especially so for this particular group.
why do d*****s have to be like this?


maybe i haven't broken the ice to get to the substantial part,
but the surface is already freezing me.
and i cannot help but cringe.

it's just me.
because i usually go the the toilet alone, thank you.