for the first time in my entire life in eusoff,
i went for the ihg closing; donning yellow like everyone else.

the feeling was really weird.
it was like orientation again.
like i was a year one,
standing there with my og mates, feeling blur,
not knowing what to do,

but when the announced our name,
when they said,
'and the champions are,

eusoff hall!!!'

the response was all the same.

it was like rag day,
two years ago,
when we were surrounded by each other,
when we couldn't control our tears,
when we were smiling through the crying,
when we were blindly hugging each other.

i stood, watching the sportsmen and sportswomen, silently,

and for one minute,
i felt in my heart,

that maybe it was the same.

it was the different,
but also the same.

even though i am not a sportswoman,
and know nuts/can do nuts at sports,

it's fantastic to be able to belong to a place like this.

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don't know why i couldn't sleep today.


popped the question again.
and i felt that small part of me deep inside stirr,
again.

oh man, i feel tempted.
sigh.

it's been ages since i picked up a pencil to do anything but shade an MCQ sheet,
and i'm so rusty i'd probably cry if i compare my current state to the past;
but the feeling is really, really good.

very, 扎实。
very, very good.
as if this is the right way it's supposed to be,
and any other way wouldn't be right/correct.

must get down to colouring loh's dp sets designs that he passed me sometime ago.
maybe late this week,

colours are so exciting but sometimes they trouble me.

oh well.

':)'