没想到，
原来，



虚伪的人，
其实是我。
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you know what.

i think that the middle-child syndrome is true.
being insecure, unloved; always comparing yourself with others,
trying too hard to please others; caring too much about what other people think,
doing 'necessary' things, trying way too much to be nice and going out of your way,

unappreciated.

but i deserve it.

maybe its time i really lived for myself.
and not gave a fuck about what other people wanted/thought/thought of me.

and the stuff about the only child sydrome?
about being self-centred, and not caring about other's and how they think or feel,



for the nth time,
again,

i realised,
hell yeah,

it's freaking true.
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nothing about the tournament yet.

after a series of unfortunate events,
and yes, i really mean unfortunate, i ended up reaching home at 10pm when the day technically ended at 6 or earlier.

but a lot of food for thought.
kendo and not.




i want a real break after this.

i will sleep as much as i want,
go into social hermitting,
eat what i like,
and i will take some time to think.

about who i really am, what i really want to do, and what i want to become.