today was supposed to be ANOVA day but i haven't even covered till chapter 5 of pl2132 yet.
quite luckily i studied regression and the other stuff about validity and reliability the day before, or else i'd really be done for, for sure.

went to watch the juniors train.
it's really inspiring/stifling [at the same time yes], their fervour for kendo.
coming back to train on a saturday! it's the first time in kendo history.
i mean, jiawei and i have had our mini practices here and there,
and i on and off somewhat trained for my own satisfaction,

but a self-organised juniors mini training;
really quite impressive.

not being mean or sarcastic,
but i just want to know, want to watch how long it will last.
and how people of these promising individuals will be left standing when i step down from presidency, or even when i step out of this university.


on another note,
i was supposed to watch them and just prevent any dangerous things from happening.
my priority should be pl2132, not taking down notes of wenhao's training, not watching for the juniors and pointing out mistakes, yes it sounds selfish but at this point of time i know this should be my priority.

and yet when wenhao said,
'eh, you're not training ah,'
and i said 'yes, im not, im studying'
and he said 'ah, you make me disappointed.'

and then i felt

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and then at the end of training,
he turned to me and said,
'ah, looks like you ended up training after all.'


and yes i did,
less than 15 minutes into the training i picked up his bokken and started practicising cuts.

why why why why why why why
this 2-3 hours i could have read through chapter 5 and 6 and also figured out 2 way ANOVA!
urgh!

it scares me sometimes.
like how much his comments or words affect me.

and it's true, i almost felt like i was been seen through,
because once my hand gripped the bokken it was like it heaved a sigh of relief and welcoming [if a hand could do that] and immediately i was 100% into it.



so much for ANOVA day.

well,
luckily there's tonight [which is quite a long night ahead, considering typically i sleep an average of 5 hours a day and usually only after 5am these days.] though tee hong did forward me the link for an article that urged people to sleep without guilty and to sleep well and like 8 hours a day, and wenhao did say something about people not sleeping enough eating more.

and when he said that,
a small voice in my brain was like,
'shit! that sounds like me!'

but there's less than 2 days left, so heck it, i can start my morning-loving early-bird lifestyle change when it's the december holidays and there's kendo, choir and dance to do.

today hopefully i can clear what i hope to clear by 4am, grab some mac breakfast, then revise the tutorial sheets.
and


everyday is ANOVA DAY!

okay i should study now,
bye!