i uploaded a lot of pictures today. i'm quite annoyed with facebook because i can't seem to get the java thing and i have to keep using the simple uploader which is taking me donkey years but the pictures make me happy, so it's worth the trouble.






and guess what, i can't sleep.

for reasons i wish didn't exist but that's too bad.

i thought about things, and i realised relationships between people are tacky things.
it's like the cookie i really wanted to eat but belonged/belongs to someone else.
if the cookie doesn't want to be owned by someone else and wants to be eaten by me, there would be absolutely no problem in that case except that i would be some kind of horrible thief to the owner, who rightfully owns it.

not that i will ever risk letting the cookie know of course.

or the cookie that i wanted to eat but no longer want to but suddenly the cookie is kind of asking for me to eat it now.

it's about reciprocal relationships.
friendships are built on trust, promises, and understanding.
i apologise if i misunderstood you, broke whatever unspoken promise, let you feel angry, upset, whatever. but sometimes i wish you'd understood where i came from, because things' aren't just all about how you feel, where you're coming from, and the things you want to do.


it's really too bad you think that way, because it's not that i haven't tried.
when you try to say hello to an unfriendly looking person for the first time,
if the person ignores you, maybe you'll try saying hello again for the second time.
but if you keep trying and it fails,

i give up.
i don't know what you do, but i give up.

i'm not so man yan.
the most incredible thing to me about her is that she told me she inroduced herself to anyone/said hello to everyone in hall around her. regardless of whether she knew them or not.
her unwavering spirit, relentlessness, strong resolve...and of course her combo hits...



but that's not the point.
that the two years we toiled together is not worth you understanding me,
that maybe when i felt i knew you would understand me, you didnt,
that when you felt i understood you, i didn't

it's all too bad really,
because i really tried.