i don't know what's wrong,

i haven't been going to classes [much],
have been skipping 99.999 percent of my lectures,
haven't been doing 99.9999 percent of my readings,
haven't had the motivation to get going or get anything accomplished.

and today, oh, i mean yesterday, i skipped my only lecture for the day,
and slept for like n hours, where n ---> a incredibly guilt-ridden amount of time spanning from early morning to evening today, waking up in between on and off to check my email, my smses and also to try, albeit rather weakly, to read my abnormal text, which was essentially the reason i skipped lecture today [excuse rather] : that i hadn't done the readings allocated for that lecture yet, and that if i skipped the 2 hrs and read it by myself i'd understand it better than sit in and fall asleep and catch whatever i can of her thick hongkong accent trying to explain psych concepts.

yes.

whatever.

i'm becoming the ever so unmotivated student i never was, never thought i could be.
it's quite bad, i suddenly realised.

and i don't know why.

maybe too many things on my hands, so when i get some time i just spend it as if i have tons of it to spare, when i actually don't, and then probably my grades will end up suffering.

i don't know.
i just want a holiday.

when i come back, i'll study, i promise.
i hope.