sometimes i think about mundane things, in between cat naps on long bus rides; at home, during commercials when the teevee is on; between boring complaints and conversations with random people.


i always think,

why is it that when a ugly person stalks you, it's scary and disgusting and creepy, but when it's a tall dark handsome young fellow, you feel appreciated and honored and that he's a hopeless romantic?

why is it that when a small-sized girl acts cute it's generally acceptable, when people complain to me and cringe when they see a plus-sized girl act cute?

why is it when a pretty girl tries extra hard to be friendly and sociable, she's seen as earnest and sincere, but when an ugly or not-so-attractive girl tries the same, people seem to see her actions as desperate?

these, and other small things that probably don't really matter.







the world is still too complicated a place for me to understand.
and it still troubles me how much appearances matter to people.

and perhaps, sometimes,
myself included.