obsession (countable and uncountable ; plural obsessions)

1. A compulsive or irrational preoccupation.
   
2. An unhealthy fixation.

compulsion (plural: compulsions)

1. An irrational need to perform some action, often despite negative consequence

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there's a certain kind of syndrome called the psychology student sydrome.
psych students have a tendency to think that they are inflicted with the various illnesses that they study about because the symptoms they read about are scarily similar to the kind they exhibit.

i don't think i have it.

i think that most psych students don't really know what these illnesses are about.
it's not about reading about them or knowing strangers who have them. it's about have close friends, family, who are so misfortunate to be inflicted with these illnesses, or worse still, having yourself as a case study because only you will know every aspect of your life, better than anybody else.



never mind that,

things have been moving on slowly in wardrobe and in engineering, and i can't help but feel lethargic despite having had 4-5 hours sleep daily. 2 hrs once a while, yes, but on the whole it's always 4-5. i just cannot understand how people function properly based on 2 hours of sleep a day.

if i sleep two hours and someone wakes me up to do something, i ll either finish my job sloppily, not do the job, or just kill the person who woke me up.



our dear kiwi says she is kind of miffed/scared by the effortless/unconscious way i observe and make predictions about people.

it's random but i realised freud's theories are true.

if we like someone, we tend to tease someone else about liking the person.
if we didn't sleep enough and we still feel like napping but are obliged to wake up, we tend to urge others who slept less than us to go to sleep.

to displace our desires, emotions, wants, needs on others.
can be so powerful.



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happybelatedbirthday miao, i regret that im not able to pass you your present personally on your bday, nor spend much time preparing it.

and i am blaming it all and eusoff hall rag.
yes it's all your fault.

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things look exciting this coming year, with rambutan, sugar cane, durian, watermelon, starfruit, lemon staying in b4, peach in b3, lychee, orange, tomato, honeydew in b2, cherry and mango in b1.

i told myself that if i didn't get b3 i'd go home and stay. it's like really time to say goodbye. the longest i stay, the more reasons i have not to leave. it's getting harder by the minute.
but then now,

hello strawberry, we're roomies.

apple is starting to think that,
hall ain't as bad as it's all made up to me.
but i'm already leaving, soon.