i think i'm cursed. it's a spanking new pair of trainers! i've worn them, what, barely 4 times?! though at least 45 minutes each time... the last time this happened i still had to wear a waterproof grey uniform. i remember it was pe, and i was wearing spanking new trainers, GREEN COLOURED! and by the end of the soccer session, my right shoe had a small hole -____-

so much for taking good care of my belongings.


i've temporarily found my new it song, so i'm pretty satisfied.
i dont know why i found shiina's voice so appealing; the first time i heard it,
i was like, who the hell is this woman with this screechy voice!? urgh. complete disdain.
but her voice has a compelling deadly charm, i swear. and her personality is really cool.
plus she plays n number of instruments really well, writes her own songs, tunes and lyrics, helms a band, and even produces her own albums, pretty impressive.

wait, she writes in archaic language? ok, that's seriously way beyond me. impressive still. what better than catchy tunes and a really bizarre character to idolize.


so pretty much nothing else has been playing in my headphones and computer speakers besides tokyo jihen and shiina's really intriguing vocals.

'adult' is seriously a gem. i think 'goraku', or 'variety', their latest album, is way too bizarre for me. the only song i find catchy enough to tolerate it's extreme level of weirdness is 金魚の箱.
it's a seriously good rocking track. 'メトロ' is pretty cute, but i don't quite appreciate it's electronic-cutesy-ish sound. the rest of the tracks, especially 'OSCA', are just plain absurd, no offense to TJ fans. seriously way too weird for my own acceptable standards. so then i tried 'adult', which was more mild, but pleasing to the ear. it has a suitable amount of drums, bass, good rock and even lounge-ish jazz [imagine her drawl when she sings jazz! surprisingly fantastic!] i'm just replaying most of the tracks on my computer now.

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i'm pretty miffed that the f***ing dp marketing committee made all dp members absorb 2 tickets worth of money for tonight's bash, which i wisely didn't go for, since i'm not in the right state of mind to club, not with the state of things, and my state of hair [i wouldn't know what to wear! seriously, you tell me. *deadpan look*]

another reason to classify hall life and administration as f***ed up.
not that i'm so angsty. i like some people in hall, and can tolerate most people her, but the way things are done are still so disappointing, despite all the promising leaders and new people making decisions and all. i guess in the end it's still the same, yeah?


need more time to consider my stay.
meanwhile im glad dr so. got funding so we can all get paid for being her research assistants. yay/. no more intense immense internal struggle over not teaching tuition and not being self-sufficient. at least im showing some signs of trying to be.

okay, im trying to listen to 'metro' again, BUT IT'S REALLY TOO SLOW AND CUTESY FOR MY LIKING. goodness. *clicks fast-forward to chorus. alright, at least the tune here is more tolerable. there's a good bit of drums, and her 'doo-doo-do-do-do' is pretty catchy and more cute than act-cute. the things shiina does. sometimes i doubt her creative ability. *rolls eyes*

anyway, that's besides the point.
exams are around the corner, and i'm still shaking my leg [literally, since i'm doing that now, but you know what i mean] [wait, she stopped singing and there's this electric guitar and keyboard solo which is pretty nice. oh, she started singing again. her english is inaudible/undecipherable/weird/pretty cool[depending on what she sings... she sounds sexy/husky when she sings in english, weird eh!]



ok, i'm determined to try to assimilate 'goraku' again. im sure im weird enough to accept some more of it's weirdness. [ok, 'ramp' sounds pretty ok, but it's not a potential 'it' song =( frmph.]

maybe not.
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the drips of blood, the smell of sweat,the taste of iron,
at the expense of my adrenaline fix.

sigh.