for some strange reason i feel compelled to type a post. i am sitting on the carpeted floor of the block lounge, with a senior within 500 cm proximity of me, wondering when the rowdy bunch of juniors who 'reserved' the lounge tables and seats with their study materials and an eraser with 'reserved' hand written on it will barge in after their dinner.

now of course, this is nothing peculiar.

i've just spent roughly half a day studying, or trying to study in the library.
its cold, quiet, and discomforting. but its efficient, i suppose.

i think i ll go out tomorrow.
out to study.
i always feel claustraphobia when the exams are nearing and people start studying in groups and clogging up private spaces and public spheres. somehow i feel this need to break out, to let loose, to run away from this place. only then, can i recreate my own private comfort zone. it's kind of weird really. that i belong to this generation of kids who go out to study because they can't focus with all the distracting by products of consumerism and individualism at home.

my sister was telling me about this complaint in the newspaper written in by some unknown fella. he was like, 'WHY ARE ALL THE STUDENTS IN THE LIBRARY?! they should be studying in their school library, they're taking up all the tables and seats!'
amusing.



for some reason my plan, which i just came up with this afternoon, failed.
i have no plan B i realised. means i have no where to go from now till around 12pm. let's see, the last bus from vivo to here is at 11pm from tampines, which means i can probably stay there till around 1130... if that fails, theres 143, which is from toa payoh, at 1130, so it should reach around 12 or later.... which is good. which means i can leave this place for a while.

i don't know if it's me, but
it's really starting to get cold in here, this place.
i dont think i can imagine stay here for another year.
i mean, the changes are good, and there are plenty of things to look forward to, and my block benefits and welfare is fantastic, but...

in the end i realised im ultimately a social person,
and,
well.

you know.