im feeling just a little like a piece of useless shit cause its 6 36 am and i promised myself i would cut some more stuff before going to sleep but im sleepy even after my bath.

it reminds me of the time i was so tired i kept having those sleep 'hiccups' in the midst of doing stuff, and even while waiting for my egg prata. virgin attempt at falling flat, my face, into the prata. well, not quite, but nearly. my spoon fell when my hand released its grip so i didnt manage to. i wonder if that's a good thing.



so many things to do, so little time.

i miss eating with j. sometimes i think its cause he can go on and on about stuff at work, tech stuff, some random things, latest doramas; i dunno, but somewhere in the middle i just switch off and give a blank look because its brain overload cause there's too much info for my peasy peanut brain, but its a nice comfortable feeling so i dont really mind.

i wonder if i really act like a child sometimes. the way i get patted on my head and treated like a small girl... its confusing really.

well.
frmph.



i kind of miss clubbing. just a little. not the drinks, but more the fun, the cranky laughter and lame-but-sometimes-horny-or/and-corny jokes, the fanatastic dancing; the occasional girly dress up. but i suppose i dont think i ll be going for quite sometime, till i find myself at least. cutting my hair has been a fresh start, besides a part for charity, and i need some time for identity searching.


everything is going on fine at home, which makes me glad, because things usually arent, and havent been for a long time... but they are, pretty much, at least for now. which is good, surprisingly, but good nevertheless.

i wonder if i pissed my boss off today because i went a bit overboard with some really sarcastic lame joke answers. but well, i take it for granted too much that he's good-natured and can tolerate my nonsense. but maybe its just my natural tendency to be nastier to guys because i tend to think they can take these kind of things and all kinds of nonsense while i'd be more careful and caring towards the girls.

i think i ll sleep a little while =)
maybe get up and cut some containers, hopefully.


5 alarms?
enough, you think?