cloud messaged me today to ask if i knew where serene posted me, cause she didnt.

its a bit sad to leave keong saik, but i guess this is exactly what i needed;
to step out of my comfort zone.
i'd be sad to leave mr han, the kids [gabby is my favourite; i cant help it, im just biased but at least i dont explicitly show it, heh =)]
miss gabby, gim seng, his sister, joey, yew cheong...

i ll miss lunching together with zoey and cloud...


so today was rather eventful i think.
cause its a new outlet, serene got us to go around creating publicity for the outlet; the turnout and enquiries seem rather positive.

it was quite amusing i think; my virgin attempt at distributing flyers!
*gasp*
im so sua ku and sheltered, can? haha.
i mean, i ve always thought of giving out flyers for a quick buck but i hate being pestered by flyer distributors so i reckon i wouldnt want to pester other people and be disliked.
but in the end we ended up doing the door to door thing.
which wasnt too bad, cause most of the residents were really nice.
the general rule; smile, and they will smile back.
just explain your cause nicely, and they will accept.

so 1/2 of the day was spent distributing flyers. had i known it would be so hot i'd have worn shorts, but i never wear shorts out anyway, so-

i suppose its rather amusing to be stuck with a 15 year old boy whos probably half a head taller than you are. i mean, at first i tried very hard to make small talk. you know, the usual. i just cant help it if theres this silence. sometimes between mutual friends its a silence of compromise. or its a comfortable silence. but with someone you dont really know, its just plain awkward!
so after my first few attempts i kind of gave up cause he just gave me one word answers.
=_____= seriously! im not like some old woman trying to pick you up!
its just small talk man! lol. would it kill for you to smile a little, work those cheek muscles? geez.

but looking at him DOES make me feel old. i mean, hes like what, sec 3? and hes tall, quite good-looking. not to mention doesnt like to smile, likes to act-cool blah blah. is it a phase all guys grow out of? cause my dad doesnt seem to have grown out of it yet. frmph. *smirk*

BUT THE SILENCE WAS KILLING ME
so i just kind of heaved a sigh of resignment [a sigh of resignment sounds funny. you know, weird-funny, not haha-funny]

then the weird part came
he started making small talk.
haha.
but it was in random spurts, and i was usually caught off guard when he tried.
and i was so tired and sien from giving out flyers anyway. but
it was so amusing!

so there i was, this 19 going on 20 talkative girl/woman [one kid called me auntie and broke my heart. some adults still think im sec 4 eh, girl ah, how can you call me auntie? =( lol] distributing flyers with this 15 year old boy who doesnt seem to like to talk.

well
something good came out of it at the end. i wont say what, but it made me smile for the rest of the day. amusing.

somehow, he reminds me of my lost youth.
the expression on his face; the delight written all over when he flipped through that book;
it mirrored mine; my feelings, my emotions were exactly the same.
but i've decided my path already. its a bit sad i didnt have enough courage to pursue my dreams. but he still can. 15 eh. when i was 15, i thought i had my whole life right in front of me, waiting for me to explore, to make mistakes, to correct them, to succeed.
then people say theres always chances for career changes.
but im not disliking what im intending to do anyway; second best isnt too bad, LAH. right?
anyway i can always draw in my free time and post it on DEVIANT ART haha right.


im looking forward to meeting the other people from the other outlets. wonder what they ll be like. and the art competition on the 9th... wife's birthday! its coming soon. which implies i better show some action, cause her present last year i spent a whole 3 months doing... thats one present i dont think i can outdo.. sigh...

it seems like every outlet i go to [except for the bishan one] keong saik, this west coast one, i seem to find its surroundings heart-breakingly beautiful and picturesque. or maybe its just me, on one of my emo-chirpy-cheerful-the-world-is-so-wonderful-i-cant-take-it days.



its a pity i didnt get to take pictures of keong saik road;
i ll be sure to take pictures of west coast for sure =3

im still coughing, but its a lot better thanks to the cough syrup from mr m.
sometimes, i just dont know what to say, cause 'thank you' is never enough, and is way too formal... but i d just like people to know im thankful ...

i have to make a conscious effort to start remembering names again...
i mean, english names shouldnt be a problem, but my STM seems to have a lower-than-average-7 capacity. i know its supposed to be 7+2 or 7-2
but it seems like im some mad anomaly; i can only remember like what, 3 names?

i wont make the same mistake again;
i remember gabby's hurt expression when i called her wrongly
all she wanted was for me to remember her name.
and the smile on her face when i called her name correctly the next time, and the times after that... and the smile on MY face when she asked for my name in return....



and the smile on my face today when anne asked for my name
priceless.