yesterday night, or should i say today morning, was an entirely bizarre experience. not that i despised it though... it was just plain funny. as in, weird-funny, not haha-funny [unlike my philo lecturer, who's awful nice, but happens to be a bit of both... when she lectures shes always a bit weird-funny. she 'll launch into one of those long long talks where we have no idea where shes going and sometimes she'll laugh at her own jokes, which is haha-funny i suppose.]

anyway, yes yes.

back to hall life.


getting well adjusted here already. seeing familar faces; putting up a friendly face and trying to throw the 'pai-sehness' of first-times away.

a current update on my free-ness
im currently member of kendo [actually i really want to be really strong or be exco or something, but thats not for me to decide. not yet anyway... =) but last practice seemed like a good start], secretary of jap studies society [yes, i can't believe i took up this sai kang post again. as if i did not have enough of typing-late-night-early-morning-minutes...and this time my boss is... sigh.], member of eusoff works [unbelievable. i made it in. *goes to one corner to laugh to herself* haw haw haw. you cant imagine how pleased i am with myself. i always liked photog so maybe this might be my big break!!!! HURRAH =D]

and there's dp sets, which i have no idea whether im in or not... but chen yong said he would help me talk to the senior in charge, and wayne said he would talk to hadrian about it also...

apparently everyone has certain social capital that i do not possess or have not acquired yet...

whenever i see chen yong i have to surpress the urge to call him 'monk man'
its like the urge to say, 'up lah, geok!!!' whenever i see her
>_< it's unintentional, i swear.

now's that phase in my life that i can actually feel the deepening and formation of social relationships with people... and i feel extremely tempted to just slack off by not placing effort in this... but of course i wont... wont slack off that is.

sidetracking, im wonder what the other designs for the block tee will be like. obviously they will be good, since elaine and kim ong are doing them... but i just want to know what they look like... dying urge... frmph.

must remember to bring my digi cam this weekend. so i can post some guai lan photos to guai lan other people.

havent been doing pieces lately... need more self-discipline.


actually i was just wondering...
out of all the people i give my drawings to, how many actually do really keep them well and remember them as presents from me? i guess to me, a piece is something which a monetary value cannot be placed upon; it is special, original, unique. it is not something that can be measured in normal methods but yet is something substantial and tangible... i figure its the number of hours and effort i put into it... thats the first thing i recall when i look at a piece. i will remember how many times i changed my mind about wanting that side to be a certain colour; how many times i erased that corner till i got it just right; how many times this had to be adjusted till i was satisfied.

the best things [pieces], i always give away.
there's this strong sense of unbearable sadness at parting
but i always comfort myself by saying that i own it; thus i should be able to come up with something better if not of the same standard, so why need/ want to keep it...

it is my hands that are truly valuable, not that flimsy piece of paper...



where have i digressed to?
irrelevant and incoherent again. *laughs*. yeah.
that's wenlin for you.