suddenly feel like writing a story. but in chinese. but den again i feel lazy. read a story inside i5land book one. its about forbidden love between two siblings. i guess some people find it disgusting and immediately label it as incest, but its written so beautifully and so painfully....

what is it about these china people that enables them to write stories that are so original yet so tocuhing and so moving? *wonders* never mind that more than half of the adjectives used i cannot understand cos the chinese is so chim. not like taiwanese stories. always the same old crap. im sick and tired of taiwanese stereotyped. *curses*

i wish i could write sth like that. maybe....

Ways to get a hangover

step1:
study the first four chapters of organic chem and try to cramm all the reagents and reactions into your measely little useless brain within one hour in order to be able to follow your impossible to follow study schedule.

step 2:
realise that step 1 is impossible to carry out and stop for a break. casually walk to the kitchen for the next step

step3:
casually open the fridge, dismissing chocolate, ice cream, and whatever BAD BAD foods that are existent in your fridge. or non existent in your fridge but apparently in your mind. whatever.
p.s rmbr to stock up the cans of beer in your fridge beforehand and then casually forget about it and leave it in the cold compartment.

step4:
pick up a can of beer from the bottom compartment and peer at it curiously, wondering the nutritional value of its contents. then weigh the pros and cons and realise its not worth it.

step5:
drink it anyway.

step6:
drink the whole can within 5 minutes. on an empty stomach

step7:
try to continue memorising the rest of the chapters of organic chemistry and start feeling woozy.

CONGRATULATIONS, IF YOU HAVE FOLLOWED THE ABOVE INSTRUCTIONS RELIGIOUSLY, YOU SHOULD BE DRUNK BY NOW. IF NOT, YOU RE SOME POOR SOD WITH A GOOD HOLD FOR LIQUOR. IF BEER DOESNT WORK, TRY XO INSTEAD. OR VODKA. that should do the trick.


Ways to cure a hangover

now if you ve followed the above instructions religiously and end up drunk and stoned and desparately need help to wake up in time to continue with your impossible study schedule, all you have to do is follow these instructions. this is the cure, so apparently this will take more steps to achieve the desired result.

step1
realised you re feeling woozy and crawl to bed.

step2
SLEEP YOU IDIOT!!!! HOW THE HECK CAN YOU CRAM STUFF INTO YOUR BRAIN WHILE YOUR BRAIN FEELS LIKE COTTON WOOL?!?

step3
sleep for as long as 1 and a 1/2 hours.

step4
or longer.

step5
wake up and realise your face is still red. and your stomach feels weird. go get some bread to fill your stomach.

step6
go back to sleep.

step7
wake up and realise your face is NOT red. now thats the way to go.

step8
step onto that creepy thing i call the weighing machine and realise you ve put on 0.1 kg just by drinking beer and eating bread.

step9
worry about it. WORRY MAN!!!!

step 10
make a cup of green tea

step 11
drink it slowly

step 12
realise it worsens things and your tummy feels rounder

step13
slow jog for 45 min.

step14
not forgeting to try to cram stuff into your brain while you jog. hold your notes and mumble the facts under your breath.

CONGRATULATIONS! IF YOU HAVE FOLLOWED THE ABOVE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY, YOU SHOULD BE CURED OF YOUR HANGOVER NOW! AND YOUR DID IT IN LESS THAN 3 HOURS! YOU SHOULD BE REALLY PROUD OF YOURSELF!!!

the things i do. *sigh*

these few days i ve been living on wholemeal bread and healthy diabetic jam for breakfast. get me a new jar of jam please, Anyone? *pleading eyes*

you should see the way my sis snaps at me and says, HOW COULD YOU?!?!? when i tell her that i ate a bun with some choc on it. oh well, since i committed to it, might as well be faithful and keep to it...
grrr. she believes i ll be able to do it but i doubt so...

took 157 yesterday and it was realy full. when i passed by stanleys stop i saw him at the stop but the bus didnt stop cos too fuull le. i wonder if leeley managed to get to school on time... anyway i think hes scared of me for some weird reason i cannot comprehend. i tink im too intimidating or what maybe. but im just trying to be nice and talk to him... sort of weird missing him at choir. as in, missing= not seeing, not literally missing.

when the bus stopped at mac richie, i saw someone familar get one - heng qing! im not sure how come i knew him before this, but i always saw him arnd in school, before we became in the same gp class this year [ok, bad grammar there] =_= feels weird cos i dun really know him but hes one of those chinese speaking pple and that makes me feel so happy cos i havent gotten to speak in chinese to someone who is as comfortable in it as i am for a long time...

sent linxin a birthday card! cos its like, her birthday yesterday! and got her this purse/pouch thingy from xcercorises... ops spelling mistake there... haha i think she ll like it cos it looks funky and classy and she can carry it off... not like me :( i m like so unclass. lol. :)

happy birthday girl! you re 18~ XD

la la la. flooble is screwed so i got a new tagbpard! yay. :) i like pple to tag my board... so tag :P haw haw.
its kind of weird seeing ben arnd after not seeing him for soo long. hahah but he seems a bit off colour.. must make him more perky or sth. :D and no no no he better not spread the chicken pox to me... hahah den i can miss the CTS! rocks man. XD dream on... wait a min, these few practices i ve always been standing right next to him while waiting for the bus... OPS! haha. but shows how healthy i am LOH. *smirk smirk*

haiz.
didnt really get to see linxin today :) must talk and rite to her more often... :) some things that are lost and ofrgotten along the way can be retrieved.. trhats a relief. :) its time to start sending bday cards to jia en... i wonder how she is and whether she rmbrs chen rong and shu ping and me from school bus... lol. :) bus 14~ and bus uncle... must go visit him sometime...

la la la. shuld be mugging but...*cheeky grin* i ll mug later LAH, ok? :P

this is a really shallow post. want to read a deep one? read the previous entry. :)

im feeling a case of itchy fingers so im updating here :p dun think any1 will come anyway so...

i was wondering the other day
is it really true that all things that women do, they do for the sake of men? have women become so dependent on men that they are the sole and most important reason for our existance?

i always regarded fanny as my fashion guru or what. cos i want to be like her loh. tall, willowy, slim and graceful and yet funky la. her dress sense, aka street style is so damn cool. but she shocked me when she said she want to dress more ladylike this year or else no guys want her.T_T fanny why???

to some extent must agree. if not why the boom of those oh-so-sexy-but-not-really-there undergarments and cosmetics and other beauty products and beauty enhancing treatments
but do i have to look good just so that guys will want me? i dun gett it.
i mean... the true meaning of looking good is so that u will feel good right? for oneself, above all.
its the confidence and sense of well-being that is the end destination, not the looks of envy from other woman and the attention of men

:( why?

i know its good to improve. i know things can bve better. but shouldnt you accept me and like me the way i am if you really love me? are the two ideals conflicting? am i making things more complicated? am i contracdicting myself? i understand both arguements but what is it that is really the truth? what is it that should be right?

i still find myself in the awkward state of change
like i dont really know myself. i dont really know what i want i dont really know who i am
i dont even know what i should expect of myself

i want to slim down
i want to look pretty
i want to keep long hair
but not for you. not for anyone. for myself. cos i like it. but...

am i not ok the way i am?
im not fat.
im not bad looking
short hair is me... short hair = me

??????? what should i do?

fan actually said i xiang3tong1 le when i said i not eating fried kway teow anymore cos too oily.
i was so stunned i was speechless. she doesnt know the impact it brought on me, but...
i guess its good she doesnt know. sometimes i take the things she tells me too seriously... like shes my guru or what. but HER beliefs are not mine. HER way of doing things are not mine
i should have my own way of life. right?

i reached a conclusion. if u meet someone u really love, and who really loves u, things should be like... he loves you the way you are. you re fine like that. but you want to change for him. he never asked you, or wanted you to change, but u wanted to be better, for him?
is that what its supposed to be? its really beautiful... to me at least.

i think im starting to understand a bit. maybe thats why even tomboys are willing to wear skirts for their boyfriends when they re out on a date maybe thats why qiu ping wants to be more feminine...cos she found the person she wants to change for? maybe i ll meet someone like that too

meanwhile, i can change for myself. :)