just finished excersizing. not bad, actually had the sudden impulse to burn off at least SOME of the bloddy weight that i put on during these holidays. bloody fat alright. damn. doesnt matter la, pudgy people are nice to hug

i suddenly rmbr what yi tuan said after seeing stan after so long

'change is not impossible'

right. and change starts from now? like what? a bloody atkins diet? now way. veggie diet is worse, my fav pizza by far is meat lovers. pudgy is good.

went to shop for mr angs prezzie wif stan. havent seen him in a while, so i was stoning at bishan mrt station waiting for his grand arrival, wondering if he would pang sai me or be late
he turned out to be on the dot.

i almost didnt recognise him. he was wearing a blue tee and no specs and really really really tan
i wonder if he really likes mun yee.. shes a really good girl
everyone was so amazed with his new look. most of the girls tot he looked a lot better and even some guys unwillingly agreed in the form of grunted approvals.

but i sort of miss the old stan la. his very blur look and his pale porcelain skin and specy looks lol
hahah very stone, very nj, but very stan
now he looks so foreign... i dunno la. but im sure hes pretty much the same, i realised, as we stood talked while walking for the bloody 156 that took an eternity to come and another eternity to reach school

i still felt like i, or we, could do more for stan la. not just like invite him back for some stuff or what, but like talk to him as a friend, send him lame smses, chat to him online if he's around or what

and return him the fifty bucks that he used to buy mr angs present lol. he d better go to njchoir.net if he wants the money back or else... lol. hmmm.

i guess lots of pple are concerned abt him but how many pple actually make the first move to sms him and talk to him? even if it starts out weird and awkward and u re not sure what to say at first? i wish the guys could do it, or else it would seem like im trying to chase stan or sth -_-

just like how talking to yi tuan and cracking lame jokes will make pple think i like him T_T which i simply cannot comprehend why the hell?

guys, go ahead and make the first move la. dun leave everything to me. and come on im sure all of you are concerned about stan. send lame smses. that ll work for sure.

went to mr kohs xmas party. started off as a party den the last part was more of a preaching part... a bit like a surmon.. but thats the meaning of xmas anyway, the birth of christ who came to die for us on a cross to save our sins. yeah. thanks mr koh for telling us ur experience and sharing your knowledge with us. i may not be chirstian and i may not want to be christian for now, but it will always be sth for me to think back on when i want to decide my faith

xiao mi didnt come = no comics = xiao mi keep my comics till next year

damn. i should have known. stan if u re reading this faster go to njchoir.net or else how to get back ur 50 bucks lol.

:) haiz. x mas carolling over. now is syf.

im officially gonna be a j2. that really really sucks.